My apologies if this is the wrong place to be posting this, as I'm brand new to the forum. If there's a more appropriate board for this topic then feel free to direct me to it.
Anyways I've been kinda struggling lately with feelings of isolation and especially loneliness. I've pretty much never had any truly close friendships in my lifetime, but at least I would get some interaction at school which I now longer have in my daily life.
At the same time I'm kinda glad I'm not stuck there anymore, because I was bullied quite viciously and violently for a pretty long time in school, especially during my earlier years when I was younger. I feel like that really messed up my ability to socialize and skills in networking with others, so I'm pretty bummed it's coming back to bite me now. I would talk about this more, except I don't really know how to.
I kinda feel let down by some of the closer friendships I have had in recent years, although I must admit I have been far from a perfect friend myself, especially through these past few pandemic years.
At the same time I do have a lot of fears about opening up (privacy, being stalked and harassed, etc) that I would say unfortunately border on the irrational, hence why I'm kinda reaching out to strangers here instead of people from my own community who might know me as a result, and who also bring back bad or traumatic memories for me a lot of the time, even if they weren't involved in hurting me directly.
So if anyone wants to talk, please feel free to reach out to me. As I explained above, I'd probably prefer to do so in private rather than out in the open here, but I suppose that's also an option too. I'd love to get to know some of you better, hopefully develop some meaningful friendships even if we don't actually have all that much in common, and just be there to support each other.
Anyways feel free to reach out to me in PMs or any other social media (I'm on most platforms honestly) and I'd love to talk and connect. Sorry if I haven't really given a full introduction to myself, I honestly don't really know what else I should say or add.
FYI I'm 18 years old (almost 19 now) and a male, if that matters to anyone
Take care and stay happy,
Quinn