Am I cooked? I still have a crush

I had this little crush back in primary school year 6, which was about 10-11 years back. After primary, I never saw them or spoke to them again. Throughout secondary I never had a crush but I would often think about my old crush sometimes - just wondering if they were good..what they were upto and etc. Then after secondary was finished, I ended up having a new crush on someone in college...the only problem was that I kept thinking about how my old crush would be now, and the funny things they used to do...so, my college crush didn't last that long because I realised that I kept comparing them to someone from when I was in primary - which weirded me out. I don't know why but in my mind I feel like I won't ever get over my little crush, I feel like maybe it's because they remind me of when things were more simple and carefree? Maybe I'm in the midst of trying to get over the idea of them? Tbh i don't even remember what they look like, I just remember a few happy moments of us playing games or fighting and thats it 😃💀.
Anyway, I need help...mental..emotional...all of it. I just need help lmao 💀💀