Hi guys, thank you so much for wanting to read!
I know this isn’t strictly about studies but it is about school so I wanted to ask for advice/ help!
I have social anxiety and am on the waiting list for autism at the NHS, I have a problem where I keep sideying people like when walking through the corridor, in lesson when going to my seat and every time someone walks past me and I can see them! I feel really bad because some girls think I’m looking at their outfits or skirts or smth but I can only rlly see blurry so I don’t know where I’m looking. If someone notices me and gets nervous or I can see them looking back at me it makes me more anxious that I have to hold my timetable next to one eye and have my hand up to cover my other eye when I walk and every time someone walks past my desk! I try to sit by a corner facing the wall so I only need to worry about 1 eye but in one of my lessons the desks are close together and people walk rlly close by me even though I’m next to the wall and it happens with teachers too and I just don’t want to hurt their feelings and I can’t control it I don’t know what to do!
I only noticed it in year 10 but I think I did it for a long time without releasing I was looking at people sideying them and just thinking they were part of my vision! But I realised when I heard someone say ‘ why is that person side eyeing me’ and then I began to feel anxious. It is so bad in crowded corridors because your vision is literally filled with people and I have to cover my eyes at the sides with my timetable and hand to not offend anyone! Is there anyone who has been through this, I hope it’s not just me! 😭