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I have a anxiety problem of side eyeing people through my eyes and I can’t control i

Hi guys, thank you so much for wanting to read!

I know this isn’t strictly about studies but it is about school so I wanted to ask for advice/ help!

I have social anxiety and am on the waiting list for autism at the NHS, I have a problem where I keep sideying people like when walking through the corridor, in lesson when going to my seat and every time someone walks past me and I can see them! I feel really bad because some girls think I’m looking at their outfits or skirts or smth but I can only rlly see blurry so I don’t know where I’m looking. If someone notices me and gets nervous or I can see them looking back at me it makes me more anxious that I have to hold my timetable next to one eye and have my hand up to cover my other eye when I walk and every time someone walks past my desk! I try to sit by a corner facing the wall so I only need to worry about 1 eye but in one of my lessons the desks are close together and people walk rlly close by me even though I’m next to the wall and it happens with teachers too and I just don’t want to hurt their feelings and I can’t control it I don’t know what to do!

I only noticed it in year 10 but I think I did it for a long time without releasing I was looking at people sideying them and just thinking they were part of my vision! But I realised when I heard someone say why is that person side eyeing me’ and then I began to feel anxious. It is so bad in crowded corridors because your vision is literally filled with people and I have to cover my eyes at the sides with my timetable and hand to not offend anyone! Is there anyone who has been through this, I hope it’s not just me! 😭
Reply 1
Hi there! I’m anxious and was recently diagnosed autistic, and am also a student :smile: non-verbal communication is hard! But what’s hard for people like me and you is also all the effort of trying not to seek “weird” or get noticed for our communication differences. I found it very difficult when I was trying to copy what everyone else was doing. More recently, I’ve tried embracing it 🤷*♀️ I haven’t had the “side eye” issue, but I struggle to make eye contact and my facial expressions sometimes don’t match my feelings, leading to people misunderstanding me. But, the people who care about you will care enough to listen when you say that you don’t mean to side eye them. They’ll trust you, and they’ll accept it. Anyone else, eg. People walking through corridors, strangers, their opinions don’t matter! They’re unlikely to see you again! You know you don’t mean to be rude, and the people who care about you should accept you anyway.
Good luck :smile:
Reply 2
Original post by hwh1tl0w29
Hi there! I’m anxious and was recently diagnosed autistic, and am also a student :smile: non-verbal communication is hard! But what’s hard for people like me and you is also all the effort of trying not to seek “weird” or get noticed for our communication differences. I found it very difficult when I was trying to copy what everyone else was doing. More recently, I’ve tried embracing it 🤷*♀️ I haven’t had the “side eye” issue, but I struggle to make eye contact and my facial expressions sometimes don’t match my feelings, leading to people misunderstanding me. But, the people who care about you will care enough to listen when you say that you don’t mean to side eye them. They’ll trust you, and they’ll accept it. Anyone else, eg. People walking through corridors, strangers, their opinions don’t matter! They’re unlikely to see you again! You know you don’t mean to be rude, and the people who care about you should accept you anyway.
Good luck :smile:


Ignore the random emojis, leant on the keyboard 😭😭
Reply 3
Original post by hwh1tl0w29
Hi there! I’m anxious and was recently diagnosed autistic, and am also a student :smile: non-verbal communication is hard! But what’s hard for people like me and you is also all the effort of trying not to seek “weird” or get noticed for our communication differences. I found it very difficult when I was trying to copy what everyone else was doing. More recently, I’ve tried embracing it 🤷*♀️ I haven’t had the “side eye” issue, but I struggle to make eye contact and my facial expressions sometimes don’t match my feelings, leading to people misunderstanding me. But, the people who care about you will care enough to listen when you say that you don’t mean to side eye them. They’ll trust you, and they’ll accept it. Anyone else, eg. People walking through corridors, strangers, their opinions don’t matter! They’re unlikely to see you again! You know you don’t mean to be rude, and the people who care about you should accept you anyway.
Good luck :smile:

Aww thank you! Were u also on the waiting list for autism and recently got diagnosed? It makes me feel bad if people might get anxious and think I’m judging them or their outfit and it’s so hard it’s like involuntary when someone walks near my field of vision or in it! Maybe my eyes see more wider than usual! Dww about the emojis hehe
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Original post by robloxgirl
Aww thank you! Were u also on the waiting list for autism and recently got diagnosed? It makes me feel bad if people might get anxious and think I’m judging them or their outfit and it’s so hard it’s like involuntary when someone walks near my field of vision or in it! Maybe my eyes see more wider than usual! Dww about the emojis hehe

Thank you so much! I think it’s important to be reminded that in a few years they won’t remember the weird girl who side eyed everyone’ lol! I worry that when I’m older and like if I wanna have a marriage that when I meet someone they might not like me bc of it
Reply 5
uhm, i think it's the covering of your face with your timetable that draws their attention, not the 'side eyeing'
Reply 6
Original post by robloxgirl
Aww thank you! Were u also on the waiting list for autism and recently got diagnosed? It makes me feel bad if people might get anxious and think I’m judging them or their outfit and it’s so hard it’s like involuntary when someone walks near my field of vision or in it! Maybe my eyes see more wider than usual! Dww about the emojis hehe


Yeah, I got my referral accepted last September, did the assessments and was diagnosed mid June 👍
Reply 7
Original post by Ciel.
uhm, i think it's the covering of your face with your timetable that draws their attention, not the 'side eyeing'

Oh I only recently started doing that! So I’m not sure but I don’t think it’s that bc I only started doing that this year because I didn’t know what to do but I would just feel uncomfortable walking to my seat and like I might sideye them and make her think I don’t like them when I do 😭
Reply 8
Original post by hwh1tl0w29
Yeah, I got my referral accepted last September, did the assessments and was diagnosed mid June 👍

Ooo that’s good! I hope I get to do the assessment soon? What was it like? What kind of questions were on it
Reply 9
Original post by hwh1tl0w29
Hi there! I’m anxious and was recently diagnosed autistic, and am also a student :smile: non-verbal communication is hard! But what’s hard for people like me and you is also all the effort of trying not to seek “weird” or get noticed for our communication differences. I found it very difficult when I was trying to copy what everyone else was doing. More recently, I’ve tried embracing it 🤷*♀️ I haven’t had the “side eye” issue, but I struggle to make eye contact and my facial expressions sometimes don’t match my feelings, leading to people misunderstanding me. But, the people who care about you will care enough to listen when you say that you don’t mean to side eye them. They’ll trust you, and they’ll accept it. Anyone else, eg. People walking through corridors, strangers, their opinions don’t matter! They’re unlikely to see you again! You know you don’t mean to be rude, and the people who care about you should accept you anyway.
Good luck :smile:

On quora I found people like me but I dont have an acc there so thought to do it here! It’s called I have a problem staring through the corner of my eye if u wanna see it!
Original post by robloxgirl
Ooo that’s good! I hope I get to do the assessment soon? What was it like? What kind of questions were on it


It was okay, just some questionnaires for a parent and some teachers, a speech and language assessment that focuses more on how you are now and a paediatric appointment with one of your parents about your childhood. Then they review your developmental history themselves. I also submitted a self report with things they might not have picked up on in the sessions, eg. routines and stims I do at home 👍
Original post by hwh1tl0w29
It was okay, just some questionnaires for a parent and some teachers, a speech and language assessment that focuses more on how you are now and a paediatric appointment with one of your parents about your childhood. Then they review your developmental history themselves. I also submitted a self report with things they might not have picked up on in the sessions, eg. routines and stims I do at home 👍


It’s different in different areas of the U.K., some use the ADOS or the AQ test, but I didn’t have that
Reply 12
Original post by hwh1tl0w29
It was okay, just some questionnaires for a parent and some teachers, a speech and language assessment that focuses more on how you are now and a paediatric appointment with one of your parents about your childhood. Then they review your developmental history themselves. I also submitted a self report with things they might not have picked up on in the sessions, eg. routines and stims I do at home 👍

Ooo that’s good! At school I’m like a mute bc I can’t rlly talk to anyone except my friend abit and people say I’m a npc
Reply 13
Original post by hwh1tl0w29
It’s different in different areas of the U.K., some use the ADOS or the AQ test, but I didn’t have that

Ohh tysmm

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