I'm not being funny, but you've been posting a lot on this specific forum. I really think you should speak to someone in your life if all of this is bothering you so much. I understand it might be embarrassing, but trust me when I say it's better to speak about the stuff you've posted with a trusted adult, like a teacher, than posting ten forum rants about them. Also, 'love' is a pretty common form of casual greeting, please don't read too much into it.