My mental health is in a terrible state due to distress
It all started a few weeks ago, when someone important to me appeared to suggest that they did not want to be friends with me, and only wanted to talk to me about work.
The results of reading that was two weeks of severe sleep deprivation.
Whilst in the middle of this, I accidentally read a horrifying story about how a suicidal patient was treated in a US hospital (she was forcibly taken inside when she tried to leave and tied to a bed for the night). This scared me so much that I contacted someone with a similar mental health disorder, who had actually been very mean to me in the past, and tried to assure her I was there for her and that she was not alone, because the thought of it happening to anyone was intolerably painful.
My best friend is in the US and I am scared she will be treated that way as well. Then, I made the mistake of reading some further stories on this topic, including a suicidal girl tied to a hospital bed for 14 hours (despite screaming and begging, before her parents finally threatened the hospital with legal action at which point they were told she was free to leave at any time during these 14 hours, and still took an hour to remove the restraints and let her go) and someone with a cycling injury also undergoing the same and being drugged and tied to a bed when they tried to leave.
This destroyed my mental health outright. I am an extremely sensitive person who regularly cries a lot (I'm a 22 year old male physics student) and kept saying 'I wish I was there, I would have stopped it because it was illegal and false imprisonment' (for context, I was notorious in school for the ferocity of my reaction when I saw someone being bullied) and before this I read a Twitter comment that disturbed me and ended with me reading about 9/11 which further disturbed me. Also, I live in constant stress due to the war in Ukraine.
I'm also afraid of flying, and I have just one fear, but this fear is really bad- the fear of a repeat of the Germanwings crash.
As a result, I'm constantly scared and afraid right now. And I'm even more scared because I want to be in a romantic relationship, but feel I am too sensitive for it, and my CBT appointments don't start for months...
I really don't know what to do.
The results of reading that was two weeks of severe sleep deprivation.
Whilst in the middle of this, I accidentally read a horrifying story about how a suicidal patient was treated in a US hospital (she was forcibly taken inside when she tried to leave and tied to a bed for the night). This scared me so much that I contacted someone with a similar mental health disorder, who had actually been very mean to me in the past, and tried to assure her I was there for her and that she was not alone, because the thought of it happening to anyone was intolerably painful.
My best friend is in the US and I am scared she will be treated that way as well. Then, I made the mistake of reading some further stories on this topic, including a suicidal girl tied to a hospital bed for 14 hours (despite screaming and begging, before her parents finally threatened the hospital with legal action at which point they were told she was free to leave at any time during these 14 hours, and still took an hour to remove the restraints and let her go) and someone with a cycling injury also undergoing the same and being drugged and tied to a bed when they tried to leave.
This destroyed my mental health outright. I am an extremely sensitive person who regularly cries a lot (I'm a 22 year old male physics student) and kept saying 'I wish I was there, I would have stopped it because it was illegal and false imprisonment' (for context, I was notorious in school for the ferocity of my reaction when I saw someone being bullied) and before this I read a Twitter comment that disturbed me and ended with me reading about 9/11 which further disturbed me. Also, I live in constant stress due to the war in Ukraine.
I'm also afraid of flying, and I have just one fear, but this fear is really bad- the fear of a repeat of the Germanwings crash.
As a result, I'm constantly scared and afraid right now. And I'm even more scared because I want to be in a romantic relationship, but feel I am too sensitive for it, and my CBT appointments don't start for months...
I really don't know what to do.
Original post by hypercolius
It all started a few weeks ago, when someone important to me appeared to suggest that they did not want to be friends with me, and only wanted to talk to me about work.
The results of reading that was two weeks of severe sleep deprivation.
Whilst in the middle of this, I accidentally read a horrifying story about how a suicidal patient was treated in a US hospital (she was forcibly taken inside when she tried to leave and tied to a bed for the night). This scared me so much that I contacted someone with a similar mental health disorder, who had actually been very mean to me in the past, and tried to assure her I was there for her and that she was not alone, because the thought of it happening to anyone was intolerably painful.
My best friend is in the US and I am scared she will be treated that way as well. Then, I made the mistake of reading some further stories on this topic, including a suicidal girl tied to a hospital bed for 14 hours (despite screaming and begging, before her parents finally threatened the hospital with legal action at which point they were told she was free to leave at any time during these 14 hours, and still took an hour to remove the restraints and let her go) and someone with a cycling injury also undergoing the same and being drugged and tied to a bed when they tried to leave.
This destroyed my mental health outright. I am an extremely sensitive person who regularly cries a lot (I'm a 22 year old male physics student) and kept saying 'I wish I was there, I would have stopped it because it was illegal and false imprisonment' (for context, I was notorious in school for the ferocity of my reaction when I saw someone being bullied) and before this I read a Twitter comment that disturbed me and ended with me reading about 9/11 which further disturbed me. Also, I live in constant stress due to the war in Ukraine.
I'm also afraid of flying, and I have just one fear, but this fear is really bad- the fear of a repeat of the Germanwings crash.
As a result, I'm constantly scared and afraid right now. And I'm even more scared because I want to be in a romantic relationship, but feel I am too sensitive for it, and my CBT appointments don't start for months...
I really don't know what to do.
The results of reading that was two weeks of severe sleep deprivation.
Whilst in the middle of this, I accidentally read a horrifying story about how a suicidal patient was treated in a US hospital (she was forcibly taken inside when she tried to leave and tied to a bed for the night). This scared me so much that I contacted someone with a similar mental health disorder, who had actually been very mean to me in the past, and tried to assure her I was there for her and that she was not alone, because the thought of it happening to anyone was intolerably painful.
My best friend is in the US and I am scared she will be treated that way as well. Then, I made the mistake of reading some further stories on this topic, including a suicidal girl tied to a hospital bed for 14 hours (despite screaming and begging, before her parents finally threatened the hospital with legal action at which point they were told she was free to leave at any time during these 14 hours, and still took an hour to remove the restraints and let her go) and someone with a cycling injury also undergoing the same and being drugged and tied to a bed when they tried to leave.
This destroyed my mental health outright. I am an extremely sensitive person who regularly cries a lot (I'm a 22 year old male physics student) and kept saying 'I wish I was there, I would have stopped it because it was illegal and false imprisonment' (for context, I was notorious in school for the ferocity of my reaction when I saw someone being bullied) and before this I read a Twitter comment that disturbed me and ended with me reading about 9/11 which further disturbed me. Also, I live in constant stress due to the war in Ukraine.
I'm also afraid of flying, and I have just one fear, but this fear is really bad- the fear of a repeat of the Germanwings crash.
As a result, I'm constantly scared and afraid right now. And I'm even more scared because I want to be in a romantic relationship, but feel I am too sensitive for it, and my CBT appointments don't start for months...
I really don't know what to do.
Sorry to hear this.
Maybe you shop stop reading on negative stories, news.
There is a lot of support out there such as:
-The Samaritans, you can call 116 123, which is available 24 hours a day
-Mind, 0300 123 3393
-Saneline, 0300 304 7000, from 4.30pm-10.30pm
-The mix, 0800 808 4994, 11am-11pm
-SHOUT, text 852258, 24 hour text service
-Crises, 741741, text service
-Papyrus, 0800 068 4141, if you have thoughts of suicide or in emotional distress
-Rethink mental health, 0300 5000 927
-No Panic, 0800 138 8889
-Relate, they have a chat advisor
-NHS mental health, 111
-Mental Health 24/7: 0800 008 6516
-hubofhope website, useful contact information for your local area
You can self refer yourself to talking therapies on the NHS website.There is the mind forum
Also Facebook groups
You can join support groups
You can contact a crises team if things get very bad Plenty of resources online, infor mation regarding well being.
Hi there,
We hear how the past few weeks have been incredibly difficult for you. This is a lot to be trying to cope with right now. You have done incredibly well for sharing it and while you may not seem to know what to do, by sharing and accepting responses shows true strength to look for some support. Having to wait for CBT appointments must be frustrating and you deserve to have support while you are waiting too.
If you are having thoughts of suicide please do reach out to us on 0800 068 4141 or text us on 88247. A trained suicide prevention adviser will be here to support you and offer adviceš
We hear how the past few weeks have been incredibly difficult for you. This is a lot to be trying to cope with right now. You have done incredibly well for sharing it and while you may not seem to know what to do, by sharing and accepting responses shows true strength to look for some support. Having to wait for CBT appointments must be frustrating and you deserve to have support while you are waiting too.
If you are having thoughts of suicide please do reach out to us on 0800 068 4141 or text us on 88247. A trained suicide prevention adviser will be here to support you and offer adviceš
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