Hi,
Back again. I can’t tell anymore if I do want to swap courses beacuse it’s not the right career path for me or if I’m just insecure and paranoid I’ll never make my money back. I’m studying animation at the moment and I enjoy my studies but I’m not overly convinced it’s due to the actual work or the people. I am doing well in my course grade wise so far and I’m about to enter my second year but I’m just ashamed and nervous that I haven’t learnt anything and I don’t feel fuffiled.
I also keep comparing myself to my friends which I know I shouldn’t but it consumes my thoughts every time I’m with them that they’re achieving a more important and meaningful degree.
Sighhhejs idk the only other thing I considered doing was psychology as I know I can continue animation in my spare time (however not with industry standard software and without the academic push I probably wouldn’t).
I’m just not a creative person at the moment idk if it’s art block or just being unmotivated but I’m really lost. I need to decide before I start in about two weeks and I’ve cut it all so late.
Due to accomidation I signed on for I can’t just drop out without finding someone to replace me which we know from experience is nearly impossible especially so late.
I feel the need to prove myself to someone but honestly I don’t even know what I want. I have no real idea of what career I would want at all. I have no strong passions and I just feel confused and conflicted. Any help or advice would be greatly appreciated, I’ve posted a lot and I am probably repeating myself but it helps me to get my thoughts out somewhere. I’m the first in my family to ever finish college and go to university so no one in my family really knows how to help or what to say.
Thank you