why is my mental health not improving

despite living a relatively stress free life? if anything, it's gradually declining. i literally can't function anymore, even house chores are too much for me at this point. everything overwhelms me. nothing even feels real anymore, when i force myself to go outside, everything feels/looks fake and it's terrifying. i will have maybe like a few good days every once in a while where i will do and plan things, only for everything to fall apart once again

despite living a relatively stress free life? if anything, it's gradually declining. i literally can't function anymore, even house chores are too much for me at this point. everything overwhelms me. nothing even feels real anymore, when i force myself to go outside, everything feels/looks fake and it's terrifying. i will have maybe like a few good days every once in a while where i will do and plan things, only for everything to fall apart once again

These are very bad miserable times we’re living through and most of us feel miserable. We’ve had the Great Recession of the 2010s, brutal austerity, then there was Covid, then the cost of living crisis. These endless bad events bring out the worst in people. We’re all going this endless hell together. I don’t know how old you are but nothing good has happened since about 2008-2009. If you go back to the 1990s and 2000s everything was so much better. Generous spending, looking forward to the new millennium, Cool Britannia. Every one was happy unlike now.

Mental health can be really difficult to understand. Even if you shouldn't be struggling sometimes you can't help it. I would say that (whilst this is probably dramatically unhelpful) it will pass. I can promise you that. I'd say you just have to keep pushing through, even if that is just to get you to your bed at the end of the day, it's you just pushing through that makes it so in the future you can look back and say that you got through it. Plus in the future it makes it so you can really appreciate everything and the realness of life. Please go talk to someone you trust about it though as they may be able to help or at least they might be able to make everything feel less overwhelming. I hope it gets better quickly for you

There are still conditions that the medical profession doesn’t know how to cure. Mental well-being help is still far a long way from perfect. But keep trying to get help and things can improve with time too

From all your recent posts I can't say it's a stress free life....
Mental health is very complicated and you have serious trust issues with the system that supposed to help you with that so it is not likely to improve on it's own, unless you make huge changes.

Do you think you could be experiencing derealisation?

idk.. it can be a bit stressful i still think it's not as stressful as it could be? like, i don't need to worry about bills, or getting up early etc. my old job was literally hell (was already really struggling with my mh at that point) so not having to put up with anything like that is a blessing tbh.
but you're right. i do have issues with the mh/medical system, because they always fail me (and many others). its like they're playing a guessing game. they don't actually understand anything or know how to help anyone. they treat people like lab rats.

I honestly feel you should surround yourself with good people especially the ones you can be free with and express how you are feeling at every point in time so basically like your 911s. It doesn't really have to be a whole bunch of people, it could be just one person or two as time goes on. 😊
I believe not everything has to have a medical solution but the people you surround yourself with matters a lot.

i'm pretty terrible at maintaining any sort of friendships, and have the worst luck in the world when it comes to people tbh
but i agree with you on that last point. like, we're sold this crazy lie that 'if you only seek help, things will get better' when in reality, modern medicine still can't really do **** other than numb or sedate you

idk.. it can be a bit stressful i still think it's not as stressful as it could be? like, i don't need to worry about bills, or getting up early etc. my old job was literally hell (was already really struggling with my mh at that point) so not having to put up with anything like that is a blessing tbh.
but you're right. i do have issues with the mh/medical system, because they always fail me (and many others). its like they're playing a guessing game. they don't actually understand anything or know how to help anyone. they treat people like lab rats.

i'm pretty terrible at maintaining any sort of friendships, and have the worst luck in the world when it comes to people tbh
but i agree with you on that last point. like, we're sold this crazy lie that 'if you only seek help, things will get better' when in reality, modern medicine still can't really do **** other than numb or sedate you

Just wondered if you had ever called considered having your hormones checked.My mental health improved dramatically after getting pregnant with my first child at 34.It also declined in run up to menopause but has never been better since menopause .If I could go back in time I would have explored this area as my MH is so quiet now and I did all the therapy stuff but got nowhere.
Hate to mention her but Denise Welch got help from a particular hormone expert.

I'm sorry you feel that way about the health system. I can see where it comes from and why you see it like this.
I have a different experience. I was on anti-depresants for a short spam, while recovering from depression I had an amazing support from my family. Although my mother was in denial for a long time about my mh, she supported me during the treatment and it really helped.
The second time I had depression I had my family and partner to support me. The third time it didn't even got to the point of needing meds to overcome the depression because support was enough.
What I'm saying is what @numb-chain said. You need support from friends. family and partner as well as medical help.
It is not like you don't want to help yourself, it is that you can't help yourself and you can't manage on your own. Sometimes only medicine is not enough. Have you considered being hospitalized in a mental clinic?
I know it sounds drastic, but the amount of attention and support you can get there is way beyond what you can get at home (in your case).

what kind of support are we talking about though? like, what could anyone possibly do to help? e.g. in the past, my partner actually encouraged me to quit my job, and see a shrink etc. so i think he's pretty supportive. not sure what else could he do tbh
that actually happened to me not that long ago (involuntary). but i found the whole experience to be degrading af. my autonomy is really important to me, and i just can't cope with anyone interfering with it. also, when it comes to therapy etc. i just can't do it. i don't want to sound arrogant but i haven't met a single shrink/therapist i couldn't outsmart in 5 minutes.

We can be friends if you want and work together on improving your MH😊🙃