There is nothing wrong with getting pleasure or excitement from either males or females. Nothing wrong with feeling unsure about your sexuality or from getting kicks from a variety of (legal) sources. Nothing wrong with not fitting a current ‘box’ of sexual orientation. Don’t put pressure on yourself to have a label - that’s ultimately irrelevant. However, big concerns you are watching things you say are disturbing! For your own well-being and that of ‘performers’ (and society in general), you should not be viewing disturbing porn of any sexual orientation.