I just thought I'd post here so everyone knows they're not alone. I guess I also just need to let out some of my feelings right now.
As practice, I did every past paper from 2006-2023. And every question I got wrong I went back to later to make sure I could do it. By the time it got to the test, my scores were varying between 70 and 93. I consistently was finishing the papers. I had even practiced with the online calculator (which, for the record, I think is awful but I thought I might have just about got to grips with. I was about as close to 'confident' about this test as I was ever going to be.
Then I took the test.
I had already decided I needed to work quickly, so I worked as quickly as I possibly could. I was strict with myself, moving off questions after around 4 minutes to make sure I didn't slip behind. After 1 hour, I was still doing ok, just about having done 20 questions. But the questions just got more difficult, and questions I could have got right if I had a bit longer I just ended up giving up on because I was running out of time. At two minutes left, I had only done up to question 33 (having already guessed several questions before that point due to time pressure). I guessed the remainder of the questions, completely randomly.
I've probably got anywhere between 35 and 60.
My dreams have been crushed.
I don't think any level of lowered boundaries or GCSE weighting could get me an interview now.