Should I leave year 12 sixth form

When I was in year 11 I was convinced that I would be going to college I even went to the taster day, however id dint enjoy it that much so at results day when i had to sit down with one of the teachers and discuss what I would be doing after school he told me that I have high enough grades to get onto the subject I had chosen at the beginning of the year if I had ended coming back. So over the rest of the summer I made a pros and cons list and decided that it would have been better for me to stay for sixth form as my teacher already knew me, I had friends and I would struggle less with my anxiety I have never been more wrong in my life, the fist week was alright that was just us getting to grips with the subject that bam second week starts all of sudden I'm up to my neck in assignments and my anxiety is through the roof I'm coming home crying everyday dreading coming into school honesty since starting school I cant remember a day where I haven't either had a panic attack before or after the school day.
I should have known better I struggled so much with my mental health and the work load during GCSEs I don't know what possessed me to actually go sixth form and try to juggle A levels and to make matters i have no one my own age to turn to regarding how i am feeling as my friends are constantly busy with their boyfriends or each other and on the off chance when I do actually try to bring up the fact that I'm struggling they act all shocked like its impossible for me to feel like that or they just brush it off and start talking about how much they love sixth form and they are glad they stayed I've never felt more stupid, small and alone in my whole entire school life. I really don't know what to do I have spoken to my parents and they said that they will support me regardless but I don't want to let them down and I want to become a midwife so I'm guessing I would have to stay and do A levels anyway if that's what I want to become. I will take any advice at this point sorry for it being such a long read.

Reply 1

ymj

What A Levels are you doing? If you hate doing a levels, you can look into health and social care btec which can also get you into midwifery.

Reply 2

glorious-hacker

I'm doing health and social care, sociology ,human applied biology and Welsh baccalaureate. Thank you ill have a look at health and social care btecs and see if they are still accepting people