should i drop out?

for a bit of backstory, i'm currently in my first year of college (started september 2024) for a level 2 media course. before this, i had dropped out of secondary school at the start of year 8 due to severe mental health issues mainly consisting of social anxiety

i thought that after 7 years i could finally give education another try since most of the people i knew irl were finishing college/starting uni and moving on with their lives whereas i still felt stuck in 2017 making absolutely no progress with anything. my attendance is already at 35% on an adjusted timetable and my timetable isn't even taxing (monday-thursday for 2/3 hours a day) yet for some reason i can't even manage that

i was told that we get our first certificate/award in december so i was going to try and at least hold out until then which would be another 7 weeks but honestly i don't even know if i can do that??? i've managed to consistently do all the work at home since it's a media course and 99% of our work is doing things with adobe software or research so the work isn't an issue at all for me, however staff at my college are insistent that they cannot allow me to stay at home and turn in work and that i have to attend classes as well which just seems so pointless to me. it also takes me an hour to commute to college so a 2 hour class turns into an almost 5 hour day with commuting and mentally preparing myself

basically i'm just not really sure if it's worth the mental strain and i was wondering if i should just save up and find courses to do online instead

ty for any advice

for a bit of backstory, i'm currently in my first year of college (started september 2024) for a level 2 media course. before this, i had dropped out of secondary school at the start of year 8 due to severe mental health issues mainly consisting of social anxiety

i thought that after 7 years i could finally give education another try since most of the people i knew irl were finishing college/starting uni and moving on with their lives whereas i still felt stuck in 2017 making absolutely no progress with anything. my attendance is already at 35% on an adjusted timetable and my timetable isn't even taxing (monday-thursday for 2/3 hours a day) yet for some reason i can't even manage that

i was told that we get our first certificate/award in december so i was going to try and at least hold out until then which would be another 7 weeks but honestly i don't even know if i can do that??? i've managed to consistently do all the work at home since it's a media course and 99% of our work is doing things with adobe software or research so the work isn't an issue at all for me, however staff at my college are insistent that they cannot allow me to stay at home and turn in work and that i have to attend classes as well which just seems so pointless to me. it also takes me an hour to commute to college so a 2 hour class turns into an almost 5 hour day with commuting and mentally preparing myself

basically i'm just not really sure if it's worth the mental strain and i was wondering if i should just save up and find courses to do online instead

ty for any advice

for a bit of backstory, i'm currently in my first year of college (started september 2024) for a level 2 media course. before this, i had dropped out of secondary school at the start of year 8 due to severe mental health issues mainly consisting of social anxiety
i thought that after 7 years i could finally give education another try since most of the people i knew irl were finishing college/starting uni and moving on with their lives whereas i still felt stuck in 2017 making absolutely no progress with anything. my attendance is already at 35% on an adjusted timetable and my timetable isn't even taxing (monday-thursday for 2/3 hours a day) yet for some reason i can't even manage that
i was told that we get our first certificate/award in december so i was going to try and at least hold out until then which would be another 7 weeks but honestly i don't even know if i can do that??? i've managed to consistently do all the work at home since it's a media course and 99% of our work is doing things with adobe software or research so the work isn't an issue at all for me, however staff at my college are insistent that they cannot allow me to stay at home and turn in work and that i have to attend classes as well which just seems so pointless to me. it also takes me an hour to commute to college so a 2 hour class turns into an almost 5 hour day with commuting and mentally preparing myself
basically i'm just not really sure if it's worth the mental strain and i was wondering if i should just save up and find courses to do online instead
ty for any advice