Struggling. depression relapse at uni

Haven't posted on TSR for a long time like this. I've had depression for years but I thought i'd got better and in February I came off antidepressants
Last few weeks i've been getting really down. i have autism and adhd. i have friends but most of them unless i'm one on one contact with them i don't feel a part of the group or who i live with. I try to be happy and content with myself but I'm not. For some reason i've always felt the need to like be with a girl or talking to one and when I'm not that gets me down. I hate being in a lot of social situations, I don't hate the idea but when I get there I don't come across that well and people usually ignore me, or I don't get anywhere. I got in contact with the NHS but surprise surprise there's a 2-4 month wait just to speak to a therapist over the phone. I'm trying to get in contact with my uni's support tteam but they've not called me even though i gave them my number several days ago.
I want to try and go out and meet people but I'm struggling .I don't really do any sports where most of the societies are. I even found there was a society for neurodivergent people at uni, but it also seems to include the physically disabled so quite a wide spectrum of conditions and they do things like face painting which really aren't my thing as a 21 year old bloke. I don't really want to go back on antidepressants and the doctor said she doesn't think I should. I don't really know what to do in the long run. I do have friends, two of them i'm close to but one is usually working a lot the other has just got a girlfriend so with her a lot. So I feel lonely quite a lot. And when I feel like this, I don't even feel like going out that much.
i don't know what i want or expect from here