ADVICE NEEDED year 13 mental health crash

i have been struggling w mental health for abt 6 weeks now - low mood, no motivation, exhaustion etc
i am ill at the moment causing chronic fatigue meaning i have been taking each school day as it comes and doing half days or not going in at all- i would like to say this is purely because im ill but in truth i think i have also started to develop anxiety around going into school. I am starting to feel less tired but am now at the point where i cant sleep at all at night which i think is due to the stress of school and the catch up work i have missed and the homework i haven’t done because i wasn’t in the lesson.
due to my illness- if i still have it in a months time the plan was to drop an a level and deep down i was praying i am still ill so i can drop an a level. i got blood test results back today that prove i am on the mend so shouldn’t be ill for much longer but i was speaking to my counsellor today as my intense overwhelmed feeling isnt going away and she was saying that it sounds like dropping an a level and reducing my workload is something that would be highly beneficial to me whether that is due to illness or not
i think i feel like i dont have a good enough reason to drop an a level anymore now that im getting better from my illness and im not diagnosed with anxiety or any mental health conditions (my parents def feel the same) even tho i rly feel that dropping one could significantly improve my current state
i dont know what to do because the more school i miss, the more overwhelmed i get because im only missing more and more work but when i do go into school it gets too much and i end up breaking down in my lessons
it doesn’t help that i really really struggle to do things that i dont want to do and idk whether this is down to adhd or me just being stubborn but i find it extremely difficult to study for 2/3 of my a level subjects and therefore find myself struggling ( i always get all the work and hwk done in the end it just takes a while and is done last minute)
all i want to do is move to london and go to the music uni that ive already been accepted into and year 13 currently feels like it’s going to break me
i guess what im asking is if anyone else is suffering with mental health and how you’re managing/managed to deal with it with going to school ?

Can you still go to the uni you have a place at if you drop an A level? If so, it seems like a no brainer to me. A levels are only a stepping stone to uni so you don’t need any more of them or any higher grades than are required to get into a uni course you want. Recovering and moving on are where your main priorities need to be. I may be being a bit brutal but if you can’t begin to manage at school this year, it sounds unlikely you would manage at uni so you need to prioritise going back at school. Developing and practicing strategies to cope with full time studying will help your transition to living and studying at uni.
It is very good to hear you are talking to your counsellor but I wonder if you are being as open to your parents? You do not need to, of course, but they might be more reasonable about dropping an A level if they knew how difficult school feels for you atm. Keep up with the regular support you are getting and aim for small but continuing progress (perhaps if you managed 10 hours in school this week, then next week you will do 15 etc) Be honest with your support network, as the year progresses about what is working for you and what isn’t. If things end up not going to plan there will be other routes to the future you want. Loads of people don’t take direct paths to their final destination- life has many bumps in the road but they are all learning opportunities.
It is not ideal to push deadlines to their limit but reward yourself for getting things done in the end, even if it’s just in the nick of time! It still counts as done! It’s a habit that, combined with health issues, probably isn’t helping your sleep at the minute though. Make some small changes to start to improve your sleep like 1. Stop revision and looking at screens a full hour before bedtime. 2. Keeping a bedtime and regular wake up routine. 3. Dim the lights, eat a banana and drink a glass of milk in the evening. 4. Have a pitch black room (wear an eye patch or ear plugs if necessary). 5. Make sure you have done some exercise during the day if your medical state will let you 6. Leave all your screens outside your bedroom during hours you should be asleep - no peeking in the night etc Your mind and body need to re-learn how to sleep well. It will take time.
Your health recovery (both mental and physical) is the most important thing. Even if you need to delay your educational journey, your adult life can still be what you want in the end (content/successful/fulfilling etc) We live in a world where adults have as many courses to choose from as teenagers and many people re-train in new careers anyway. There’s lots of time for your ambitions to realise. All experiences are learning opportunities. This time period is one of yours. Good luck and take care of yourself