I apologise if this sounds really cliché, but I really don’t know how to deal anymore.
I’ve been really low energy lately, to the point that I’ll literally lie in bed until it’s time school starts to finally get up and start getting ready. My grades are slipping horrendously, but somehow I lose all the motivation to study as soon as I get home, which is strange, because I used to be a straight A’s student. What’s stranger is that I kind of don’t care anymore.
I don’t know if it’s burnout or what, but I kind of just don’t feel like doing anything at all, and I think part of this is because I just went through a break up, although honestly I didn’t even like him that much, it was a 5 month fling that ended because I realised he was too egotistical to see that he needed to show effort that matched his words and I kind of just felt numbed to the whole thing. What sucks is that I know and understand that no one really cares, which is why I’ve ended up venting on here lol. I think I’ve been kind of depressed for several years now, but obviously that’s not something I can self diagnose, and it’s too embarrassing to go see someone about, but I don’t know why I’m suddenly crashing so hard.
Lately I really want to cry, but I can’t. I also want to feel upset, but I can’t. It’s making me uncomfortable (I can’t think of any other way to put it), as if my emotions are being blocked off so I can’t process everything and get over it. Any advice would be great. Thanks.