So so for college I'm doing BTEC art, which is basically all art related. And I've just found that I'm not really so keen on art anymore, and I have my eyes on other subjects like criminology and pyschology that sound interesting to me.
Because I like to read about crimes, watch crime documentaries, and I really enjoyed the Kdrama Juvenile Justice and i was like, having a career in the justice force sounds interesting. And pyschology interests me to, I'm always reading about stuff about pyschology on the web.
Like I still kind of like art, drawing and stuff, looking at art, but it's more like a hobby for me tbh, and the career options for art dont really interest me for some reason. I was thinking of graphic design, but like i dk man, i don't know **** about how to use computers.
Also I'm in second yr, and so it'd be kind of a waste to just drop out.
Like I want to go to university, but I dk what course to even do, because Ive kinda lost interest in doing art anymore, like i used to love art back in secondary and primary it was one of my fav subjects, but now that I'm in college, that passion has kind of faded. Like college has quite frankly ruined art for me.
In the second yr everyone is doing statements, for ucas. And I'm like wtf do I want to even do at uni? Can't even think of a art course that i want to ******* do. Like before applying to college, i did not think this through, I just thought, oh i like drawing and being creative, why not do a BTEC art subject.
I dont really draw anymore, and just feel uninterested in my current course, like its ******* dead and boring, like i dont want to keep writing about f artists man. Like my attendance is really low, and I ain't got no friends there lol(the environment in the class is toxic, with cliquey and gossipers)
I just feel so stuck on life, and wish I did A levels so that I would've been able to explore different subjects, but like i don't want to do another 2 years of college, because college for me has been hellish, and a very isolating place.
Like I'm literally so stuck on what to do in life, and I wish i didn't do an all art course. Because I feel like I've ****ed my future up, and I feel like crying lol.
This is just a rant, but any advice would be great.