for all my life iv been stuck around people who are nothing like me because id made the mistake of letting my life revolve around having a good time like so many people. iv let the fact that im bisexual worry me too the ground for all my youngest days so far and was living a life that just wasnt me, found it hard 2 escape drugs and alcohol as my brother was doing it in my house all the time and i always wanted a different life doing the things i really like and being with people that make me happy. then i met the most amazing girl in the world who rides horses on my dads farm that nuffin compares 2 she just has that something that nobody else has but i hadnt come out at the time and it didnt work because we wernt ready. we finished and later she came out as bisexual. i messed up, another story, and she left to another farm down the road. i was still stuck on my own fighting my life and i never knew what 2 think cos i thought about her every day and my life. as time went by i realised she wanted me 2 come out but i took ages cos i was a mess and an idiot. she couldnt wait forever, id hurt her and she left. now i realise that we got together on the day before valentines day! that we had loads in common, personality-wise and in our looks. both our last 2 initials r both the same aswell. MM and CC. its a coincidence but there are so many of them! i think that i met my soulmate at the perfect time in my life 2 help me be who id always wanted to be and to truly understand in each other. but she has tought me not to worry, to be happy and not to care what people think too much. always ask myself what if and what is fate... will we meet again?? even though she must really hate me :-/