ADHD is getting worse with age
I was diagnosed towards the end of high school but never needed any extra time or anything. I was almost straight A student, always finishing tasks fast and had no problem in academic achievements. I also could handle the sitting in the lesson part, although it was boring most of the time.
Later in university I did struggle a bit. It took me time to find the way I could study, because lectures where difficult for me, I would loose concentration at one point and couldn't get where I was. I started recording and re-writing at my own speed, writing my own comments. It was hard, but it was hard for everyone so I didn't consider it as something requiring extra attention. The practical lessons were fun and very easy for me. The theory I hardly passed. I also had to retake the last year because of a car accident I had and even consider quitting as I no longer enjoyed the subject. Luckily I didn't quit.
Later in life I started noticing more and more side effects or secondary symptoms of ADHD and it was getting more and more severe. I never fitted the basic symptoms because I was organized, quiet, could follow a subject was very neat and always behaved good. My diagnosis was hard because I had even some doctors said it is not ADHD until they tested me for dyslexia (I didn't have many mistakes at all and I was a good reader until lectures got too quick to write and when I didn't think about how I write words I would make a lot of mistakes).
At school I never needed extra time or any other help, even in university I managed without it (except for math).
However, I had a lot of secondary symptoms.
1. Forgetting to eat or sleep or drink. If I'm busy and don't have it on schedule or don't have anyone else to do these things with I would easily forget about it. If I don't have a bottle of water at reach I would not drink unless I already have a minor dehydration symptoms.
2. Procrastinating. I have to make a schedule to do tasks because otherwise I will leave them to the last minute, unless I do them immediately when they were given to me (like I did at school).
3. My room is a mess, but it is my mess and I know exactly where everyting is. However, at work I am very tidy and organized because I know others may need my workplace or computer or anything. Like if I needed someone to replace me at work for any reason. I keep everything easy for them. If it was only for me it was looking differently.
4. I keep forgetting things like keys, phone, glasses. I have several places where each item can be but I can't remember where I put them. They are almost always in place. Sometimes I can go out of the house without the keys just because they weren't on the hanger or the table and I was sure they are in my purse. I can walk out without my glasses because they weren't on my face or on the table, only realizing later that I can't see (it happens pretty fast though, unlike the story with the keys).
5. I can do many tasks at once (which is good) but sometimes it goes to an extreme level when it becomes not practical at all.
6. I can remember a lot of random things but can never remember when my doctor appointment is. It gets worse every time.
7. I can't decide what I want to eat or wear if I have too much choice. I sometimes ask others to do that for me.
8. When I write posts it sometimes look like I'm not finishing sentences because my brain thinks too fast for me to type. Similar things happens when I speak.
9. I don't try to contact someone more than two times when getting no answer, but when they call or we meet after many years, it is like nothing happened we can be best friends again, and they ask why didn't I contact them. I don't have social media so it is harder to follow peoples lives and I don't really care about it, but if I meet a mutual friend I would ask about them...
10. I have many symptoms of depression without having an actual depression or a reason for depression. (only recently realized it is an ADHD thing)
11. I have troubles falling asleep and wake up at night due to brain overload with thinking or creativity.
12. I'm a night person. It doesn't suit the lifestyle of a working woman.
13. I have anxiety (pretty severe one) but I learn to cope with it.
I manage well with all these but it is getting worse over time.
Anyone else is coping with ADHD and noticing it gets worse over time? Especially females... because it is different...
Later in university I did struggle a bit. It took me time to find the way I could study, because lectures where difficult for me, I would loose concentration at one point and couldn't get where I was. I started recording and re-writing at my own speed, writing my own comments. It was hard, but it was hard for everyone so I didn't consider it as something requiring extra attention. The practical lessons were fun and very easy for me. The theory I hardly passed. I also had to retake the last year because of a car accident I had and even consider quitting as I no longer enjoyed the subject. Luckily I didn't quit.
Later in life I started noticing more and more side effects or secondary symptoms of ADHD and it was getting more and more severe. I never fitted the basic symptoms because I was organized, quiet, could follow a subject was very neat and always behaved good. My diagnosis was hard because I had even some doctors said it is not ADHD until they tested me for dyslexia (I didn't have many mistakes at all and I was a good reader until lectures got too quick to write and when I didn't think about how I write words I would make a lot of mistakes).
At school I never needed extra time or any other help, even in university I managed without it (except for math).
However, I had a lot of secondary symptoms.
1. Forgetting to eat or sleep or drink. If I'm busy and don't have it on schedule or don't have anyone else to do these things with I would easily forget about it. If I don't have a bottle of water at reach I would not drink unless I already have a minor dehydration symptoms.
2. Procrastinating. I have to make a schedule to do tasks because otherwise I will leave them to the last minute, unless I do them immediately when they were given to me (like I did at school).
3. My room is a mess, but it is my mess and I know exactly where everyting is. However, at work I am very tidy and organized because I know others may need my workplace or computer or anything. Like if I needed someone to replace me at work for any reason. I keep everything easy for them. If it was only for me it was looking differently.
4. I keep forgetting things like keys, phone, glasses. I have several places where each item can be but I can't remember where I put them. They are almost always in place. Sometimes I can go out of the house without the keys just because they weren't on the hanger or the table and I was sure they are in my purse. I can walk out without my glasses because they weren't on my face or on the table, only realizing later that I can't see (it happens pretty fast though, unlike the story with the keys).
5. I can do many tasks at once (which is good) but sometimes it goes to an extreme level when it becomes not practical at all.
6. I can remember a lot of random things but can never remember when my doctor appointment is. It gets worse every time.
7. I can't decide what I want to eat or wear if I have too much choice. I sometimes ask others to do that for me.
8. When I write posts it sometimes look like I'm not finishing sentences because my brain thinks too fast for me to type. Similar things happens when I speak.
9. I don't try to contact someone more than two times when getting no answer, but when they call or we meet after many years, it is like nothing happened we can be best friends again, and they ask why didn't I contact them. I don't have social media so it is harder to follow peoples lives and I don't really care about it, but if I meet a mutual friend I would ask about them...
10. I have many symptoms of depression without having an actual depression or a reason for depression. (only recently realized it is an ADHD thing)
11. I have troubles falling asleep and wake up at night due to brain overload with thinking or creativity.
12. I'm a night person. It doesn't suit the lifestyle of a working woman.
13. I have anxiety (pretty severe one) but I learn to cope with it.
I manage well with all these but it is getting worse over time.
Anyone else is coping with ADHD and noticing it gets worse over time? Especially females... because it is different...
I can relate to so much of what you’ve said, especially about things seeming to get worse over time. I’m 15 and have diagnosed autism, but also tested positive ADHD symptoms, and while I’m still figuring everything out, I already notice how much harder some things feel as life gets more complicated. Like you, I do really well in school academically, but it’s exhausting trying to manage everything else. Forgetting to eat or drink happens to me all the time, especially if I’m hyperfocused or stuck in a routine where I don’t think about basic things like that. The part about needing schedules to avoid procrastination and your room being messy but knowing where everything is really hits home too. It’s like there’s this constant effort to balance what makes sense to my brain with what works for everyone else. Social stuff is another struggle—I can care deeply about people but also kind of disappear from their lives without meaning to, then feel bad about it later. And sleep? Ugh, my brain never wants to turn off. I think being a neurodivergent girl with ADHD or similar traits means a lot of these things get overlooked because we can seem “fine” on the surface, but underneath there’s so much going on. It helps knowing I’m not alone in these experiences.
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Original post by offshore-cauldro
I think being a neurodivergent girl with ADHD or similar traits means a lot of these things get overlooked because we can seem “fine” on the surface, but underneath there’s so much going on. It helps knowing I’m not alone in these experiences.
Exactly!
My late diagnosis is much due to everything was fine and I didn't fit into any ADHD scheme and I didn't need medication for it. I tried Concerta later in life when I was a student, it didn't work well at all.
I think Autism makes things even harder (I'm not autistic, just ADHD). I hope things will be easier for you once you find what works for you.
Original post by Kathy89
Exactly!
My late diagnosis is much due to everything was fine and I didn't fit into any ADHD scheme and I didn't need medication for it. I tried Concerta later in life when I was a student, it didn't work well at all.
I think Autism makes things even harder (I'm not autistic, just ADHD). I hope things will be easier for you once you find what works for you.
My late diagnosis is much due to everything was fine and I didn't fit into any ADHD scheme and I didn't need medication for it. I tried Concerta later in life when I was a student, it didn't work well at all.
I think Autism makes things even harder (I'm not autistic, just ADHD). I hope things will be easier for you once you find what works for you.
Yes, and it’s even worse as late diagnosis mostly affects woman due to less research.
Original post by Kathy89
I was diagnosed towards the end of high school but never needed any extra time or anything. I was almost straight A student, always finishing tasks fast and had no problem in academic achievements. I also could handle the sitting in the lesson part, although it was boring most of the time.
Later in university I did struggle a bit. It took me time to find the way I could study, because lectures where difficult for me, I would loose concentration at one point and couldn't get where I was. I started recording and re-writing at my own speed, writing my own comments. It was hard, but it was hard for everyone so I didn't consider it as something requiring extra attention. The practical lessons were fun and very easy for me. The theory I hardly passed. I also had to retake the last year because of a car accident I had and even consider quitting as I no longer enjoyed the subject. Luckily I didn't quit.
Later in life I started noticing more and more side effects or secondary symptoms of ADHD and it was getting more and more severe. I never fitted the basic symptoms because I was organized, quiet, could follow a subject was very neat and always behaved good. My diagnosis was hard because I had even some doctors said it is not ADHD until they tested me for dyslexia (I didn't have many mistakes at all and I was a good reader until lectures got too quick to write and when I didn't think about how I write words I would make a lot of mistakes).
At school I never needed extra time or any other help, even in university I managed without it (except for math).
However, I had a lot of secondary symptoms.
1. Forgetting to eat or sleep or drink. If I'm busy and don't have it on schedule or don't have anyone else to do these things with I would easily forget about it. If I don't have a bottle of water at reach I would not drink unless I already have a minor dehydration symptoms.
2. Procrastinating. I have to make a schedule to do tasks because otherwise I will leave them to the last minute, unless I do them immediately when they were given to me (like I did at school).
3. My room is a mess, but it is my mess and I know exactly where everyting is. However, at work I am very tidy and organized because I know others may need my workplace or computer or anything. Like if I needed someone to replace me at work for any reason. I keep everything easy for them. If it was only for me it was looking differently.
4. I keep forgetting things like keys, phone, glasses. I have several places where each item can be but I can't remember where I put them. They are almost always in place. Sometimes I can go out of the house without the keys just because they weren't on the hanger or the table and I was sure they are in my purse. I can walk out without my glasses because they weren't on my face or on the table, only realizing later that I can't see (it happens pretty fast though, unlike the story with the keys).
5. I can do many tasks at once (which is good) but sometimes it goes to an extreme level when it becomes not practical at all.
6. I can remember a lot of random things but can never remember when my doctor appointment is. It gets worse every time.
7. I can't decide what I want to eat or wear if I have too much choice. I sometimes ask others to do that for me.
8. When I write posts it sometimes look like I'm not finishing sentences because my brain thinks too fast for me to type. Similar things happens when I speak.
9. I don't try to contact someone more than two times when getting no answer, but when they call or we meet after many years, it is like nothing happened we can be best friends again, and they ask why didn't I contact them. I don't have social media so it is harder to follow peoples lives and I don't really care about it, but if I meet a mutual friend I would ask about them...
10. I have many symptoms of depression without having an actual depression or a reason for depression. (only recently realized it is an ADHD thing)
11. I have troubles falling asleep and wake up at night due to brain overload with thinking or creativity.
12. I'm a night person. It doesn't suit the lifestyle of a working woman.
13. I have anxiety (pretty severe one) but I learn to cope with it.
I manage well with all these but it is getting worse over time.
Anyone else is coping with ADHD and noticing it gets worse over time? Especially females... because it is different...
Later in university I did struggle a bit. It took me time to find the way I could study, because lectures where difficult for me, I would loose concentration at one point and couldn't get where I was. I started recording and re-writing at my own speed, writing my own comments. It was hard, but it was hard for everyone so I didn't consider it as something requiring extra attention. The practical lessons were fun and very easy for me. The theory I hardly passed. I also had to retake the last year because of a car accident I had and even consider quitting as I no longer enjoyed the subject. Luckily I didn't quit.
Later in life I started noticing more and more side effects or secondary symptoms of ADHD and it was getting more and more severe. I never fitted the basic symptoms because I was organized, quiet, could follow a subject was very neat and always behaved good. My diagnosis was hard because I had even some doctors said it is not ADHD until they tested me for dyslexia (I didn't have many mistakes at all and I was a good reader until lectures got too quick to write and when I didn't think about how I write words I would make a lot of mistakes).
At school I never needed extra time or any other help, even in university I managed without it (except for math).
However, I had a lot of secondary symptoms.
1. Forgetting to eat or sleep or drink. If I'm busy and don't have it on schedule or don't have anyone else to do these things with I would easily forget about it. If I don't have a bottle of water at reach I would not drink unless I already have a minor dehydration symptoms.
2. Procrastinating. I have to make a schedule to do tasks because otherwise I will leave them to the last minute, unless I do them immediately when they were given to me (like I did at school).
3. My room is a mess, but it is my mess and I know exactly where everyting is. However, at work I am very tidy and organized because I know others may need my workplace or computer or anything. Like if I needed someone to replace me at work for any reason. I keep everything easy for them. If it was only for me it was looking differently.
4. I keep forgetting things like keys, phone, glasses. I have several places where each item can be but I can't remember where I put them. They are almost always in place. Sometimes I can go out of the house without the keys just because they weren't on the hanger or the table and I was sure they are in my purse. I can walk out without my glasses because they weren't on my face or on the table, only realizing later that I can't see (it happens pretty fast though, unlike the story with the keys).
5. I can do many tasks at once (which is good) but sometimes it goes to an extreme level when it becomes not practical at all.
6. I can remember a lot of random things but can never remember when my doctor appointment is. It gets worse every time.
7. I can't decide what I want to eat or wear if I have too much choice. I sometimes ask others to do that for me.
8. When I write posts it sometimes look like I'm not finishing sentences because my brain thinks too fast for me to type. Similar things happens when I speak.
9. I don't try to contact someone more than two times when getting no answer, but when they call or we meet after many years, it is like nothing happened we can be best friends again, and they ask why didn't I contact them. I don't have social media so it is harder to follow peoples lives and I don't really care about it, but if I meet a mutual friend I would ask about them...
10. I have many symptoms of depression without having an actual depression or a reason for depression. (only recently realized it is an ADHD thing)
11. I have troubles falling asleep and wake up at night due to brain overload with thinking or creativity.
12. I'm a night person. It doesn't suit the lifestyle of a working woman.
13. I have anxiety (pretty severe one) but I learn to cope with it.
I manage well with all these but it is getting worse over time.
Anyone else is coping with ADHD and noticing it gets worse over time? Especially females... because it is different...
It gets worse over time, potentially because life gets much more complex, as an older adult you have domestic responsibilities, work responsibilities, family/kid responsibilities, and all of them tend to be more complex than even first partner/house days.
Plus, read up on the way oestrogen interacts with dopamine and consider the impact through the menopause. Many women find that really changes symptoms for the worse.
There are various formulations of medication, which, depending on their release pattern, may prove more effective. There's also more than methylphenidate on offer. If it is impacting life, it might be worth re-engaging (might take time) and trying out different options.
Original post by threeportdrift
It gets worse over time, potentially because life gets much more complex, as an older adult you have domestic responsibilities, work responsibilities, family/kid responsibilities, and all of them tend to be more complex than even first partner/house days.
Plus, read up on the way oestrogen interacts with dopamine and consider the impact through the menopause. Many women find that really changes symptoms for the worse.
There are various formulations of medication, which, depending on their release pattern, may prove more effective. There's also more than methylphenidate on offer. If it is impacting life, it might be worth re-engaging (might take time) and trying out different options.
Plus, read up on the way oestrogen interacts with dopamine and consider the impact through the menopause. Many women find that really changes symptoms for the worse.
There are various formulations of medication, which, depending on their release pattern, may prove more effective. There's also more than methylphenidate on offer. If it is impacting life, it might be worth re-engaging (might take time) and trying out different options.
Thanks a lot for the input.
I recently (9 days ago) turned 35 and it looks like my life hasn't changed the last 10 years. The same tasks are getting harder (reading for example). Organizing things, although I am very organized but it is only because I was taught to be organized, it is not something that is natural for me.
When I'm at home and have to do many chores I mix them together which is not really more productive but my brain does it on itself... I have to do this and that oh and that too and all at the same time. When I'm working with someone and we organize things, like who is doing what it becomes much easier. If someone (even myself) says me what to do first and what to do next things get easier, but without it I will do everything at the same time. When I was younger it was easier.
The hormonal thing makes sense but it is too early for me. I also look and feel and sometimes act like a teenager. I look 16 with a bit of grey hair (only recently found some) and little wrinkles around my eyes... I still haven't realized I'm in my 30's and I'm already getting closer to 40.... Maybe it is part of ADHD too...
Original post by offshore-cauldro
Yes, and it’s even worse as late diagnosis mostly affects woman due to less research.
I heard about that. Girls are not diagnosed with autism unless it is severe autism because their symptoms don't usually fit the standard scale and sometimes are even the opposite symptoms to what the boys have.
Original post by Kathy89
I was diagnosed towards the end of high school but never needed any extra time or anything. I was almost straight A student, always finishing tasks fast and had no problem in academic achievements. I also could handle the sitting in the lesson part, although it was boring most of the time.
Later in university I did struggle a bit. It took me time to find the way I could study, because lectures where difficult for me, I would loose concentration at one point and couldn't get where I was. I started recording and re-writing at my own speed, writing my own comments. It was hard, but it was hard for everyone so I didn't consider it as something requiring extra attention. The practical lessons were fun and very easy for me. The theory I hardly passed. I also had to retake the last year because of a car accident I had and even consider quitting as I no longer enjoyed the subject. Luckily I didn't quit.
Later in life I started noticing more and more side effects or secondary symptoms of ADHD and it was getting more and more severe. I never fitted the basic symptoms because I was organized, quiet, could follow a subject was very neat and always behaved good. My diagnosis was hard because I had even some doctors said it is not ADHD until they tested me for dyslexia (I didn't have many mistakes at all and I was a good reader until lectures got too quick to write and when I didn't think about how I write words I would make a lot of mistakes).
At school I never needed extra time or any other help, even in university I managed without it (except for math).
However, I had a lot of secondary symptoms.
1. Forgetting to eat or sleep or drink. If I'm busy and don't have it on schedule or don't have anyone else to do these things with I would easily forget about it. If I don't have a bottle of water at reach I would not drink unless I already have a minor dehydration symptoms.
2. Procrastinating. I have to make a schedule to do tasks because otherwise I will leave them to the last minute, unless I do them immediately when they were given to me (like I did at school).
3. My room is a mess, but it is my mess and I know exactly where everyting is. However, at work I am very tidy and organized because I know others may need my workplace or computer or anything. Like if I needed someone to replace me at work for any reason. I keep everything easy for them. If it was only for me it was looking differently.
4. I keep forgetting things like keys, phone, glasses. I have several places where each item can be but I can't remember where I put them. They are almost always in place. Sometimes I can go out of the house without the keys just because they weren't on the hanger or the table and I was sure they are in my purse. I can walk out without my glasses because they weren't on my face or on the table, only realizing later that I can't see (it happens pretty fast though, unlike the story with the keys).
5. I can do many tasks at once (which is good) but sometimes it goes to an extreme level when it becomes not practical at all.
6. I can remember a lot of random things but can never remember when my doctor appointment is. It gets worse every time.
7. I can't decide what I want to eat or wear if I have too much choice. I sometimes ask others to do that for me.
8. When I write posts it sometimes look like I'm not finishing sentences because my brain thinks too fast for me to type. Similar things happens when I speak.
9. I don't try to contact someone more than two times when getting no answer, but when they call or we meet after many years, it is like nothing happened we can be best friends again, and they ask why didn't I contact them. I don't have social media so it is harder to follow peoples lives and I don't really care about it, but if I meet a mutual friend I would ask about them...
10. I have many symptoms of depression without having an actual depression or a reason for depression. (only recently realized it is an ADHD thing)
11. I have troubles falling asleep and wake up at night due to brain overload with thinking or creativity.
12. I'm a night person. It doesn't suit the lifestyle of a working woman.
13. I have anxiety (pretty severe one) but I learn to cope with it.
I manage well with all these but it is getting worse over time.
Anyone else is coping with ADHD and noticing it gets worse over time? Especially females... because it is different...
Later in university I did struggle a bit. It took me time to find the way I could study, because lectures where difficult for me, I would loose concentration at one point and couldn't get where I was. I started recording and re-writing at my own speed, writing my own comments. It was hard, but it was hard for everyone so I didn't consider it as something requiring extra attention. The practical lessons were fun and very easy for me. The theory I hardly passed. I also had to retake the last year because of a car accident I had and even consider quitting as I no longer enjoyed the subject. Luckily I didn't quit.
Later in life I started noticing more and more side effects or secondary symptoms of ADHD and it was getting more and more severe. I never fitted the basic symptoms because I was organized, quiet, could follow a subject was very neat and always behaved good. My diagnosis was hard because I had even some doctors said it is not ADHD until they tested me for dyslexia (I didn't have many mistakes at all and I was a good reader until lectures got too quick to write and when I didn't think about how I write words I would make a lot of mistakes).
At school I never needed extra time or any other help, even in university I managed without it (except for math).
However, I had a lot of secondary symptoms.
1. Forgetting to eat or sleep or drink. If I'm busy and don't have it on schedule or don't have anyone else to do these things with I would easily forget about it. If I don't have a bottle of water at reach I would not drink unless I already have a minor dehydration symptoms.
2. Procrastinating. I have to make a schedule to do tasks because otherwise I will leave them to the last minute, unless I do them immediately when they were given to me (like I did at school).
3. My room is a mess, but it is my mess and I know exactly where everyting is. However, at work I am very tidy and organized because I know others may need my workplace or computer or anything. Like if I needed someone to replace me at work for any reason. I keep everything easy for them. If it was only for me it was looking differently.
4. I keep forgetting things like keys, phone, glasses. I have several places where each item can be but I can't remember where I put them. They are almost always in place. Sometimes I can go out of the house without the keys just because they weren't on the hanger or the table and I was sure they are in my purse. I can walk out without my glasses because they weren't on my face or on the table, only realizing later that I can't see (it happens pretty fast though, unlike the story with the keys).
5. I can do many tasks at once (which is good) but sometimes it goes to an extreme level when it becomes not practical at all.
6. I can remember a lot of random things but can never remember when my doctor appointment is. It gets worse every time.
7. I can't decide what I want to eat or wear if I have too much choice. I sometimes ask others to do that for me.
8. When I write posts it sometimes look like I'm not finishing sentences because my brain thinks too fast for me to type. Similar things happens when I speak.
9. I don't try to contact someone more than two times when getting no answer, but when they call or we meet after many years, it is like nothing happened we can be best friends again, and they ask why didn't I contact them. I don't have social media so it is harder to follow peoples lives and I don't really care about it, but if I meet a mutual friend I would ask about them...
10. I have many symptoms of depression without having an actual depression or a reason for depression. (only recently realized it is an ADHD thing)
11. I have troubles falling asleep and wake up at night due to brain overload with thinking or creativity.
12. I'm a night person. It doesn't suit the lifestyle of a working woman.
13. I have anxiety (pretty severe one) but I learn to cope with it.
I manage well with all these but it is getting worse over time.
Anyone else is coping with ADHD and noticing it gets worse over time? Especially females... because it is different...
You are overloaded, you can't think straight. All you need to do is keep a journal. Every evening, write down absolutely everything that is on your mind, schedule these thoughts in order of priority and deal with them. Walk at least 30 minutes x 2 every day. preferably 30 minutes before work and 30 minutes after work. Avoid bread and all wheat products. Avoid all oils in your food. Avoid processed food. On the weekend get out into the countryside and take a good walk. This is all about the basic need for exercise and fulfilment. Only you can make yourself happy, nothing and no one else can do this for you. Good luck
Original post by Killick69
You are overloaded, you can't think straight. All you need to do is keep a journal. Every evening, write down absolutely everything that is on your mind, schedule these thoughts in order of priority and deal with them. Walk at least 30 minutes x 2 every day. preferably 30 minutes before work and 30 minutes after work. Avoid bread and all wheat products. Avoid all oils in your food. Avoid processed food. On the weekend get out into the countryside and take a good walk. This is all about the basic need for exercise and fulfilment. Only you can make yourself happy, nothing and no one else can do this for you. Good luck
Thanks for your response.
I actually tried something similar. The walking and nutrition part. There was a time when I was more strict vegan, closer to raw 80-10-10 if you are familiar with the term. Healthwise maybe it was the best time but it was very hard to keep with that and I had much less free time because I had to prepare food to myself and most of the day was focused on food... I decided that it is not the best for my mental health.
The journal thing is harder to do, my brain thinks about 3-4 things (sometimes even more) at the same time. It is hard to write all of them down. It will take a lot of time. (one of the reasons I quit writing).
I may consider this method though as I already mentioned, it was actually food for my health. I may ask friends to help me with that. I need time to think about it.
The walking part, I do it already when the weather is good.
Thanks a lot.
Today was/is a strange day.
Last night my sort of partner (female) and I decided to stay a night at my place. It was perfect until my ADHD kicked it at 3am. I woke up with a creative mind took my laptop to the kitchen and started working. She woke up and went to the kitchen to see if I'm alright because apparently I woke her up and didn't come back and made her worry. I was alright until she asked me to come back and sleep. I said I have to finish something and she made a sad face. I felt she IS sad but accepting, still my ADHD kicked in harder and I started crying for making her sad.
We ended up taking a bit about it.
I was overly emotional most of the night so it was not that productive. I will explain to her more about it later.
I know it is the chemical imbalance in my brain that makes me being overly emotional and with wrong emotions but I seriously don't want medication, although it might be very helpful. It is something that I know I could avoid or control if I only was ready for that. Like with most of my anxiety attacks. It was like an overflow of negative thoughts... like she would never want to be with me because I have that strange creativity spikes at night and it wakes her up, later when I started crying my brain was like she will never be with me because I act like a baby... like it is stupid but my brain does it on its own.
I will find a way to explain this once I'm better.
I'm starting to consider medication, although I know they have a lot of side effects.
Last night my sort of partner (female) and I decided to stay a night at my place. It was perfect until my ADHD kicked it at 3am. I woke up with a creative mind took my laptop to the kitchen and started working. She woke up and went to the kitchen to see if I'm alright because apparently I woke her up and didn't come back and made her worry. I was alright until she asked me to come back and sleep. I said I have to finish something and she made a sad face. I felt she IS sad but accepting, still my ADHD kicked in harder and I started crying for making her sad.
We ended up taking a bit about it.
I was overly emotional most of the night so it was not that productive. I will explain to her more about it later.
I know it is the chemical imbalance in my brain that makes me being overly emotional and with wrong emotions but I seriously don't want medication, although it might be very helpful. It is something that I know I could avoid or control if I only was ready for that. Like with most of my anxiety attacks. It was like an overflow of negative thoughts... like she would never want to be with me because I have that strange creativity spikes at night and it wakes her up, later when I started crying my brain was like she will never be with me because I act like a baby... like it is stupid but my brain does it on its own.
I will find a way to explain this once I'm better.
I'm starting to consider medication, although I know they have a lot of side effects.
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