Feeling disillusioned at central saint martins

I’m really sorry you’re feeling like this—it sounds so draining, and I can see why you’re questioning it all. The WhatsApp situation seems like it’s been blown way out of proportion, and I get how isolating that must feel. People can be so quick to judge without understanding.
As for the degree, you’re right—plenty of people succeed in jewellery design without one, but the course could still help with networking or structure if you think you’d benefit. Maybe talk to a tutor or support staff about how you’re feeling—they might have options you haven’t considered yet.
The loneliness and dark thoughts are really worrying, though, and you don’t need to handle this alone. Reaching out to someone, even a counselor at uni, could really help. Whatever happens, this situation doesn’t define you, and there are other paths if this one isn’t working.

Thank you for being so kind. I was really coping badly. I was completely ostracised by a large number of my class - such selfish awful *****es. It’s all because I told them I was shocked I saw a suicide near my house and they literally all turned on me saying I triggered them. They took my trauma and made it about them n i doubt they cared tbh they just wanted to be *****es. I even told them my friend did the same yet they chose to ostracise me completely all because they were triggered by me, despite my obvious suffering at the time I witnessed it. I didn’t give any details or anything really. Several weeks later and the ostracism continues. Horrible *****es. They are so **** at art as well if I’m honest. I’m tired of endless work on some basic design and tired of constantly making test pieces. I know how to do all of it. I want to create my own designs not design for others. I hadn’t realised it’s all about designing for others. I asked the teachers about the job opportunities and they said barely anyone gets a job at a fashion house. For Cartier he said it’s one every five years. I don’t think this was represented truthfully by the uni when I applied. There’s a focus on successful graduates in talks given but one might be from ten years ago. I am overqualified and too good for this. The teachers met me Friday and were so kind. They completely understand that these students are immature *****es and agreed with me I’m right, and they noted that these girls can’t seem to empathise and think in any way other than about themselves, which they said can be age related. I really want to quit and I pray they get back to me and say I’m allowed a full refund. The few good jobs people get are abroad anyway, I’d hate that. I’ve a better chance developing my own brand now and connecting with other jewellers. I cannot see that these ugly plain *****es will do well in their careers. Cannot wait to get out of there

Thank you for being so kind. I was really coping badly. I was completely ostracised by a large number of my class - such selfish awful *****es. It’s all because I told them I was shocked I saw a suicide near my house and they literally all turned on me saying I triggered them. They took my trauma and made it about them n i doubt they cared tbh they just wanted to be *****es. I even told them my friend did the same yet they chose to ostracise me completely all because they were triggered by me, despite my obvious suffering at the time I witnessed it. I didn’t give any details or anything really. Several weeks later and the ostracism continues. Horrible *****es. They are so **** at art as well if I’m honest. I’m tired of endless work on some basic design and tired of constantly making test pieces. I know how to do all of it. I want to create my own designs not design for others. I hadn’t realised it’s all about designing for others. I asked the teachers about the job opportunities and they said barely anyone gets a job at a fashion house. For Cartier he said it’s one every five years. I don’t think this was represented truthfully by the uni when I applied. There’s a focus on successful graduates in talks given but one might be from ten years ago. I am overqualified and too good for this. The teachers met me Friday and were so kind. They completely understand that these students are immature *****es and agreed with me I’m right, and they noted that these girls can’t seem to empathise and think in any way other than about themselves, which they said can be age related. I really want to quit and I pray they get back to me and say I’m allowed a full refund. The few good jobs people get are abroad anyway, I’d hate that. I’ve a better chance developing my own brand now and connecting with other jewellers. I cannot see that these ugly plain *****es will do well in their careers. Cannot wait to get out of there

It sounds like you have had some incredibly difficult experiences recently. Witnessing a suicide and losing a friend to suicide require support and empathy and it sounds like you have not received this and instead have been ostracised by those around you. We imagine this must feel really isolating and upsetting. Please know that there is support out there for you. You can call us on HOPELINE 247 on 0800 0684141 or text 88247 if this is leading you to experience suicidal thoughts yourself. There are also some support services for those bereaved by suicide who you could contact to share your recent experiences. These include https://www.ifucareshare.co.uk/ https://uksobs.com/ https://amparo.org.uk/ https://www.suicideandco.org/

Go to BCU in Birmingham. Much better jewellery degrees than CSM