Hello. I’ve been suffering from serious depression, anxiety, and extremely low self-esteem, leading to self-harming thoughts, all because of my life and choices. I’m primarily attracted to foreign males and have fallen in love with my celebrity crushes. Let’s call them T, J, and R.
I was deeply into T from mid-2020 until April 2022, but then he had several dating rumors and some weird, inappropriate behavior at an award show. After that, I found J and admired him, eventually falling in love from April 2022 to February 2024. However, he also had three dating rumors and a close connection with a female assistant choreographer, which affected my feelings.
Now, I like another guy who’s my age. He seems sweet and cute, but I still can’t find happiness because my life feels boring and miserable in my country. I’m not sure if I’ll ever have anyone in my life or how that’s even possible. I’m going through breakdowns and battling low self-worth.
Thanks for reading. I hope this doesn’t trigger negative comments. By the way, they all have the same profession, but I don’t think I’m attracted to the profession itself. I just found them to be my type.