I'm getting tested for cPTSD that was potentially caused by many different incidents throughout my life including dysfunctional family dynamics, emotional abuse, manipulation, attempted SA, watching someone I love fall down a flight of stairs, etc. Most of my alleged "episodes" consisted of me bursting out crying, screaming swear words at people, and hiding in any corner I could find. I also avoid any staircase I can find, and if I have to go on one, I go very very slowly. Trust does not come easily for me and I'm always paranoid that people will backstab me or hurt me in some way. This causes clinginess and possessiveness in any good relationship I find, but it makes people see me as a red flag, and ruins my perception of myself. I've struggled with other mental illnesses during my life including ADHD, anxiety (mostly recovered), and psychotic BPD.