family is so loud

Okay so I started writing this mainly bc of my skin. I think stress is a massive factor with my skin and I've noticed that my skin was getting so much better when I didn't see my family for 2 months but I've broken out so badly despite having the same diet, sleep, skin routine. So I've rounded it down to stress.

My family are incredibly loud. Not like abusive, smashing plates loud. But my brother and dad will wake up at like 7am and just be talking very loudly and they'll be screaming because they're both playing games. My brother has an annoying loud voice and it just sounds like he's groaning all the time and my dad just annoys me on purpose - saying he finds it funny when I get upset. I understand that winding people up is funny but it's getting to the point where I get very mad intrusive thoughts and it just makes me even more on edge.

My mum is a very loud talker - whether in public or private so I always tell her to keep it down because I'm starting to get overwhelmed. Not only that but sometimes I want to go to bed early so I tell them if they can keep it down but then the TV gets so much louder and I can practically hear the noise vibrations from our room.

I've told them multiple times if they could be quiet but they're convinced that they are speaking normally. It's gotten to the point where I bring my headphones 24/7 and I just avoid having conversations with them because I simply can't handle how annoying they are. It's a shame because other than this, I think my family is great but it just annoys me.

Especially how if I want to sleep in the morning - they get to me loud but at night(I'm a night owl) I have to be quiet because they're asleep. Or if my brother is sick, I have to be quiet but if I'm sick, everyone can stay the same. Or If I start screaming back, they'll get angry and say 'Why they hell are you screaming? What's wrong with you?'

I understand that to some people, this might sound like a stupid problem. I've been struggling with how loud they are and it's not just a recent hating but I've hated how loud they are since as long as I can remeber. When I used to go to school, the noise level wasnt that bad and I don't feel the same with my friends because they aren't loud. I physically don't know what to do with myself because there must be a time each day when im gritting my teeth in anger or just telling them to stop but they insist that they aren't loud and Im getting fed up the gaslighting.