Friends

I'm lonely but I'm not lonely. Like I am quite friendly with most people (except the popular girls and boys if I'm being blatantly honest). like in form we can sit where we want and there are lots of diff tables w diff friendgroups. I'm a girl and there r 3 tables w girls and I've sat on all 3 previously and no one seems to mind me. It's just that my presence or absence doesn't really matter tbh. I can leave school and I can die and no one will notice. I've separated a bit from my previous friends cuz they like talking and talking sht ab other people and I don't like talking sht. I'm still forced to be friendly to them because if they dislike me I'll be their next topic and the guy is highly helpful as he's really smart and I wouldn't want to lose my friendship. I've met 2 other girls (person a and b)who I get in quite well with and we are close. However with one of the girls whenever I'm with her alone ie in the canteen she's always talking about how she misses the other girl so much. Them 2 cannot live without eachother they're meant for eachother they both love x and y etc. I've vented to person a before and she's been there for me but like I feel like I don't want to annoy her so I don't try to speak much yo her and and when we r together for a long time it gets a bit boring. She has told me secrets she has never told anyone tho. Person B is funny we both r quite compatible I think n make eacjtoher laugh. However we both don't fully trust eachother.
overall I don't know what my point is or where I'm heading with this post but I feel quite empty and I don't have a single person to message or be there for me in times of difficulty

Oh, it is sad to hear you feel that way. It looks like those three people you described a pretty good relationship you can build with them. Try interacting with them more. Maybe just send fun staff on a message app to start with. Later when you need you can try talking to them more. They seem to be good people.
The girl you don't trust so much, why is that?

Hi, I am sorry you feel that way, it is certainly not a good feeling to experience. I hope you will feel better soon and I just wanna let you know that I am here if you need to vent. I hope you can be not anonymous and we can connect. Hope you have a good day.