I just hate my life so much

I'm 21, a few weeks away from being 22 and live is unbearable. I have 40p in my bank and i have nothing to my name. I have UC but i'm so far in debt it doesn't help me at all. My dad is on UC but his bank balance is -£100 rn. We only have christmas dinner and that's it. Everything is so expensive and there is nothing we can do about it. I apply for jobs but don't get them and now the jobcentre wants me to go to their weird programme every week for the next 12 months and i just don't see the point. I have no motivation and i'd honestly rather die than keep going. I'm so scared to wake up each day because I dred being alive. I just want my life to go back to the way it was before everything changed. My dad keeps blaming me for us being poor when I've tried my best to save money. I've not been buying chocolate or anything the way he has been, but it's still my fault apparently. My phone broke and I did get a new one, but it was really basic and less than £100 so he can't blame me that much. I just want this to end but I don't see how. I guess this is just a rant about my situation.

hey this is really sad, especially at this special time of year. do you have other family apart from your Dad ?
people are willing to reach out to their relatives at Christmas. you just have to ask them.

I'm 21, a few weeks away from being 22 and live is unbearable. I have 40p in my bank and i have nothing to my name. I have UC but i'm so far in debt it doesn't help me at all. My dad is on UC but his bank balance is -£100 rn. We only have christmas dinner and that's it. Everything is so expensive and there is nothing we can do about it. I apply for jobs but don't get them and now the jobcentre wants me to go to their weird programme every week for the next 12 months and i just don't see the point. I have no motivation and i'd honestly rather die than keep going. I'm so scared to wake up each day because I dred being alive. I just want my life to go back to the way it was before everything changed. My dad keeps blaming me for us being poor when I've tried my best to save money. I've not been buying chocolate or anything the way he has been, but it's still my fault apparently. My phone broke and I did get a new one, but it was really basic and less than £100 so he can't blame me that much. I just want this to end but I don't see how. I guess this is just a rant about my situation.

I'm 21, a few weeks away from being 22 and live is unbearable. I have 40p in my bank and i have nothing to my name. I have UC but i'm so far in debt it doesn't help me at all. My dad is on UC but his bank balance is -£100 rn. We only have christmas dinner and that's it. Everything is so expensive and there is nothing we can do about it. I apply for jobs but don't get them and now the jobcentre wants me to go to their weird programme every week for the next 12 months and i just don't see the point. I have no motivation and i'd honestly rather die than keep going. I'm so scared to wake up each day because I dred being alive. I just want my life to go back to the way it was before everything changed. My dad keeps blaming me for us being poor when I've tried my best to save money. I've not been buying chocolate or anything the way he has been, but it's still my fault apparently. My phone broke and I did get a new one, but it was really basic and less than £100 so he can't blame me that much. I just want this to end but I don't see how. I guess this is just a rant about my situation.

I'm 21, a few weeks away from being 22 and live is unbearable. I have 40p in my bank and i have nothing to my name. I have UC but i'm so far in debt it doesn't help me at all. My dad is on UC but his bank balance is -£100 rn. We only have christmas dinner and that's it. Everything is so expensive and there is nothing we can do about it. I apply for jobs but don't get them and now the jobcentre wants me to go to their weird programme every week for the next 12 months and i just don't see the point. I have no motivation and i'd honestly rather die than keep going. I'm so scared to wake up each day because I dred being alive. I just want my life to go back to the way it was before everything changed. My dad keeps blaming me for us being poor when I've tried my best to save money. I've not been buying chocolate or anything the way he has been, but it's still my fault apparently. My phone broke and I did get a new one, but it was really basic and less than £100 so he can't blame me that much. I just want this to end but I don't see how. I guess this is just a rant about my situation.

Hi there,
Sorry you feel this way, I definitely understand you and I'm here to offer some help.
What are you studying/studied?
What jobs are you applying for?
I am seasoned in the work industry and can give advice and recommend you where possible.
Let me know.
C

I'm doing an English literature undergraduate course with the open university. I've been applying for retail but I've been told it doesn't suit my skills and I should try unpaid voluntary work to learn skills but I need the money. I'm just kind of stuck.

Dude, the job centre wants you to go the "weird programme" so that then they can give you some money. If you sign onto UC one of the conditions is that you visit the job centre every week and you discuss your progress with applying for jobs, and whether or not you've got any interviews lined up, and so on.
They pay for your interview clothes, and they pay for you to have a monthly bus pass to attend interviews...
Seriously sign onto UC yourself and attend the job centre meetings.
edit: never mind, you said you're already on Universal Credit. My bad.
Okay in the meantime at least earn some money using LifePoints (survey website). It's not much but it's better than nothing.
Second edit: Apply at McDonald's. My 17 year old has been working there for a year and a quarter and the pay is not bad.

I've already tried McDonalds and they rejected me within a few days of the interview.

I'm 21, a few weeks away from being 22 and live is unbearable. I have 40p in my bank and i have nothing to my name. I have UC but i'm so far in debt it doesn't help me at all. My dad is on UC but his bank balance is -£100 rn. We only have christmas dinner and that's it. Everything is so expensive and there is nothing we can do about it. I apply for jobs but don't get them and now the jobcentre wants me to go to their weird programme every week for the next 12 months and i just don't see the point. I have no motivation and i'd honestly rather die than keep going. I'm so scared to wake up each day because I dred being alive. I just want my life to go back to the way it was before everything changed. My dad keeps blaming me for us being poor when I've tried my best to save money. I've not been buying chocolate or anything the way he has been, but it's still my fault apparently. My phone broke and I did get a new one, but it was really basic and less than £100 so he can't blame me that much. I just want this to end but I don't see how. I guess this is just a rant about my situation.

Have you tried uber or deliveroo? The great thing about these jobs is that you sometimes get tips and you have flexible working hours.