need advice pls

I am a girl, (14) so was my exboyfriend. He is my first boyfriend and he has told me he has had about 40 girlfriends/talking stages in the past. We both liked each other in the beginning of the school year but never talked (not in phone or irl). So 5 months later I decided to hit him up via school email. From then on he confessed he had feelings for me and I did too in the span of one day of me emailing him. So we were in talking stage for about 4 days to get to know each other and we just hit it off really good or so I thought. We got together long story short I thought everything was going well. We would hold hands, he would walk me to my class, we would talk before first period, walk to the bus together, and hang out during the one class we share (choir). He even met my mom at our choir concert. (parents are strict so he was introduced as a friend) our communication method was through email. I did notice however our communication was less and less from being in talking stage to getting together. He said he even loved me more than anything, he wouldn't know what to do without me, and that he never felt this way about a girl before. And that he saw us 'lasting'. winter break starts and it seems everything seems fine. We would say we miss each other, say good morning. And good night, even with daily I love you's. Then 2 weeks and a half since us being together he decided to break up with me via email me saying (keep in mind he didn't even contact me for one whole day before our breakup) 'hey. I'm sorry but I can't do this. I can't maintain a relationship right now. I'm sorry but I can't do this anymore.' I said 'i understand, just know whatever youre going through will get better.' he said 'you did nothing wrong you're super kind and super loving.' I said 'its fine, just know we can be friends nothing more' he said 'yea ofc' I said ' wait I don't want to lie, I still want to be with you. Even if now isn't the right time I can wait.' he said 'i understand. Maybe after I sort the things happening rn' so that's what happened. But what I don't get is he doesn't seem deppressed, he's active on social media, and he still hangs with friends posting Snapchat stories and tiktoks. I'm very hurt and I feel like if I go to school, I'll be seen as a laughing stock.