i hate university and wish i'd never gone.

do you know what you DO want to study?
do you think you'd be happier living in halls at a different university?
All first year degrees will feel like you're repeating some A level content. Students start degrees with a huge range of qualifications and subject backgrounds and so the first year is designed to make sure that everyone has a good grasp of the basic concepts before second year when marks start to contribute to degree classifications.

no i have no idea. im not sure if its because of my depression but i genuinely dont like anything.

hello everyone, I'm a first year uni student at the university of lincoln and im hating every second of it.
i got 3 a stars in my a levels and couldve gone anywhere i wanted, but because im severely depressed and get extremely nervous away from my house, i decided to commute everyday as i live 15 minutes away from the uni.
the past few months have made me the loneliest ive ever felt. i don't have a single friend at uni or in general. im not sure if this is because i dont commute or if its because i dont like partying, as theres such an insane drinking culture at uni. i hate seeing people i went to school with enjoying themselves whilst im hating every second. i have cried more times than i can count at uni, and dont enjoy the course either.
the course is incredibly boring, its basically everything i did during a levels just with less help. The lecturers dont help at all with assignments or work in general, and because of this im receiving the worst grades ive ever got since i started school. i have no passion for the subject of my course, and just picked it because its what i was good at during school.
i dont know what to do, i dont want to drop out because i'll feel like a disappointment to my parents and feel further behind in life than i already feel.

hello everyone, I'm a first year uni student at the university of lincoln and im hating every second of it.
i got 3 a stars in my a levels and couldve gone anywhere i wanted, but because im severely depressed and get extremely nervous away from my house, i decided to commute everyday as i live 15 minutes away from the uni.
the past few months have made me the loneliest ive ever felt. i don't have a single friend at uni or in general. im not sure if this is because i dont commute or if its because i dont like partying, as theres such an insane drinking culture at uni. i hate seeing people i went to school with enjoying themselves whilst im hating every second. i have cried more times than i can count at uni, and dont enjoy the course either.
the course is incredibly boring, its basically everything i did during a levels just with less help. The lecturers dont help at all with assignments or work in general, and because of this im receiving the worst grades ive ever got since i started school. i have no passion for the subject of my course, and just picked it because its what i was good at during school.
i dont know what to do, i dont want to drop out because i'll feel like a disappointment to my parents and feel further behind in life than i already feel.

do you know what you DO want to study?
do you think you'd be happier living in halls at a different university?
All first year degrees will feel like you're repeating some A level content. Students start degrees with a huge range of qualifications and subject backgrounds and so the first year is designed to make sure that everyone has a good grasp of the basic concepts before second year when marks start to contribute to degree classifications.

Not all degrees repeat A level content. The OP's problem may stem at least partly from choosing a university with academic standards insufficiently demanding for the OP's ability.
OP, why not leave and apply to a more competitive university?

i cant move out because im too depressed, i dont like being away from my house and would probably be even more overwhelmed.

i cant move out because im too depressed, i dont like being away from my house and would probably be even more overwhelmed.

Hi OP,
@Stiffy Byng 's advice I think is spot on. It sounds like you've been going through a very difficult time for awhile and I would suggest taking some time to focus on yourself and recovering your mental health. Have you spoken to your GP about your depression and anxiety?
It sounds like you're neither enjoying the uni you are at or what you're studying, and so perhaps taking some time to get yourself into a better place, re-evaluating your goals and interests and then reapplying to a uni with entry requirements better matched to your abilities and preferences would be a good option. If you are overwhelmed by large cities then maybe even check out Bath's courses, because its a much smaller, cosier city and uni than Lincoln.
Perhaps when you are feeling better generally you may feel differently about living in halls or joining new societies, or putting yourself out there to meet people, but the first step is to focus on your mental recovery.
I hope this is of some help and I'm sorry to hear you've had to go through this - please rest assured that you can 100% have a great experience at uni if you are in the right headspace.
Holly
University of Bath

I would recommend that you don’t burn your bridges while you’re struggling with mental illness. Don’t withdraw from your current course, suspend your studies and take a break. That leaves you with the option to return to your current course if you realise that your depression was clouding your judgement.

hello everyone, I'm a first year uni student at the university of lincoln and im hating every second of it.
i got 3 a stars in my a levels and couldve gone anywhere i wanted, but because im severely depressed and get extremely nervous away from my house, i decided to commute everyday as i live 15 minutes away from the uni.

the past few months have made me the loneliest ive ever felt. i don't have a single friend at uni or in general. im not sure if this is because i dont commute or if its because i dont like partying, as theres such an insane drinking culture at uni. i hate seeing people i went to school with enjoying themselves whilst im hating every second. i have cried more times than i can count at uni, and dont enjoy the course either.

the course is incredibly boring, its basically everything i did during a levels just with less help. The lecturers dont help at all with assignments or work in general, and because of this im receiving the worst grades ive ever got since i started school. i have no passion for the subject of my course, and just picked it because its what i was good at during school.

i dont know what to do, i dont want to drop out because i'll feel like a disappointment to my parents and feel further behind in life than i already feel.

I would usually agree with that, but the university and course may be part of the problem in this case. The OP is a three A star student who, in a parallel universe, might be at Cambridge by now, but who is at an undistinguished university, where the course is too basic to stimulate or challenge the OP intellectually. The OP is bored by the course, and would probably be bored even if he or she were mentally fine.
Student partying is great, but not if the university is all about partying and not about learning. It also helps a person's social world and therefore their wellbeing to be among peers who have a similar level of intellectual engagement with academic study and the wider world.
An academically challenging university can of course impose its own challenges to a person's wellbeing, but the OP might be a lot better off if he or she can improve his or her mental health away from university and then go to another university that would better suit his or her ability.

i’ve decided to stay at home at least for this year. i might decide to move to another uni next year but i doubt it. i know ill regret going to lincoln when im older but my mental health is too bad to go anywhere else 🥲

Are you being treated for your mental illness or are you just hoping it will get better without treatment?