I feel very confused. I received an offer for History at Oxford two days ago, and got back my HAT results today. Surprisingly, I got a really low score of 46/100. The average of everyone who took the test was 59.2, and it was 69.0 for those given offers. I statistically shouldn't have even been given an interview based on my score.
The Oxford History faculty website says that when deciding who to shortlist, your contextualised GCSE score and HAT make up 50% of the process each. I got alright GCSEs (9998888877), and don't come from a disadvantaged background or anything (I didn't go to private school, but my school gets average results and I live in a nice enough area). I was wondering if my interview and written work made up for my bad score, but those aren't considered until after the shortlisting, and even so, the HAT plays a big role even post-interview.
My initial happiness about getting an offer has turned into extreme confusion. I feel like I've stolen a place from someone who deserved it more, and I'm almost scared that I'll get an email telling me my offer was a mistake.