hey,
got rejected from cambridge gonville and caius college for phys natsci - a levels maths, further maths, chemistry, physics, predicted four a*s, straight 9s at gcse - and was super upset about it, i've wanted to go to oxbridge since i was little, i spent the entirety of sixth form working my ass off doing tonnes of outreach schemes and residentials for it and it really sucked that i didn't get in or even get pooled.
i'm just curious, is it worth reapplying? the only uni i'm waiting on is physics at imperial, which i'm not even insanely keen on going to anymore tbh since living in london sounds like hell, and i'm fairly sure that i'll get rejected from there anyways since the esat admissions test i sat for cambridge was also for imperial. i think my esat score was the main reason for my rejection - they didn't give me any feedback, but my scores were 4.5, 3.8 and 4.8 for maths 1 maths 2 and physics respectively, and most people who got offers had scores of 7+. my interview could've gone better too.
i've got offers from sheffield and warwick, and have an upcoming interview for manchester (i've heard that the interview is very general for manchester and most people who have an interview have an offer? not really sure, don't want to take any risks now that i've been rejected), so if i'm successful with manchester that'll probs be where i go.
i'm concerned that other than getting a job and working on my application again i'm not really going to have much to do during a gap year. i have a few plans, like learning some coding languages, teaching myself extra further maths modules, getting a job to save up and get experience, but otherwise i'm going to get bored and lonely easily. also, i really want to learn to live on my own (my parents love me and have supported me so so much but i want to gain some independence). lots of my friends have got offers from oxbridge and other unis, so i'll be mostly on my own for the year too. my whole career plan will get set back by another year; if i do a phd after my masters i won't get full time employment for ages. also, probably the biggest pushback, i might get rejected again, and i really really don't want to go through that again.
on the other hand, there's a small possibility i could go to the uni that i worked hard for.
either i go to manchester if i get in, warwick if i dont (manchester seemed more solid for physics), or take a year out and give cambridge another shot. what should i do?