A little vent

I don't know why I am making this post, I don't think there is any advice that can solve this problem. Maybe I just need to share this with people to feel better.
So I was planning to study undergrad in the UK as an international student. I applied to the University of Birmingham, University of Leeds, University of Sheffield, University of Nottingham and Queen's University Belfast through UCAS this January. And guess what? I got accepted to Birmingham, Sheffield and QUB!! Still waiting for the decisions of Leeds and Nottingham. But the problem is that I can't study in them. I was supposed to apply to only Leeds and Sheffield as these two have a 50% scholarship and a 10,000 pounds per year scholarship, respectively, so that I could afford the humongous amount of tuition fees. I applied to the other 3 just for fun, to see if I get accepted in them. Now even if I get the scholarships in either Sheffield or Leeds, it will be hard for my family to afford my tuition fees (and impossible without the scholarship). I didn't want my family to sacrifice so much for me so I decided that I am not gonna come to the UK. I am going to a country nearer to my home country (in Asia).
But I have been broken ever since I made this decision because I have been planning to study in the UK for quite a few years, hence the good international A level results that got me in such great unis. I feel so angry and sad and useless now. I have lost all my motivation to study. I feel like not going to uni and start travelling the world or something to forget about all this.
So yeah here is my little rant. Thank you for reading this. And I have a piece of advice for you all: Never become attached to anything or anyone like a goal, dream, a specific university, money or your partner. Because, trust me, one day you will be tested and this attachment will hurt you a lot.

Has your family's circumstances changed since you applied?

Nope. I only applied about 3 weeks before. Unless I win some sort of lottery, I don't think my family's financial situation is gonna improve anytime soon.

Well, I understand you being disappointed, but you presumably knew that this was the likely outcome.

Well yes. My parents were so proud of my A-level results that they were willing to sell some of their assets to let me study in a good uni. That's why I applied in the first place. But then my gut started saying that this was wrong. So I just told them that I want to go to different country in a slightly less good uni.

So it's your decision. Perhaps the most "adult" decision that you've ever had to make?.

I don't know why I am making this post, I don't think there is any advice that can solve this problem. Maybe I just need to share this with people to feel better.
So I was planning to study undergrad in the UK as an international student. I applied to the University of Birmingham, University of Leeds, University of Sheffield, University of Nottingham and Queen's University Belfast through UCAS this January. And guess what? I got accepted to Birmingham, Sheffield and QUB!! Still waiting for the decisions of Leeds and Nottingham. But the problem is that I can't study in them. I was supposed to apply to only Leeds and Sheffield as these two have a 50% scholarship and a 10,000 pounds per year scholarship, respectively, so that I could afford the humongous amount of tuition fees. I applied to the other 3 just for fun, to see if I get accepted in them. Now even if I get the scholarships in either Sheffield or Leeds, it will be hard for my family to afford my tuition fees (and impossible without the scholarship). I didn't want my family to sacrifice so much for me so I decided that I am not gonna come to the UK. I am going to a country nearer to my home country (in Asia).
But I have been broken ever since I made this decision because I have been planning to study in the UK for quite a few years, hence the good international A level results that got me in such great unis. I feel so angry and sad and useless now. I have lost all my motivation to study. I feel like not going to uni and start travelling the world or something to forget about all this.
So yeah here is my little rant. Thank you for reading this. And I have a piece of advice for you all: Never become attached to anything or anyone like a goal, dream, a specific university, money or your partner. Because, trust me, one day you will be tested and this attachment will hurt you a lot.

I totally get where you're coming from. My situation is actually flip-flopped from yours: I'm a dual US/UK citizen currently living in the US, and I have applied to colleges both in the US and the UK. Going to school in the UK would be much cheaper for me than in the US (undergrad sticker price per year in the US is often $80,000+!) but I currently only have acceptances from 4 US schools, no UK schools. I might end up choosing to take a gap year to re-apply to UK schools if I don't receive any UK offers this year, because I too don't want to make my parents sacrifice all that they've worked so hard for. But at the end of the day, your decision will not haunt you!! Uni is what you make of it, and you will have a fun time and learn a lot wherever you go, as long as you have a positive mindset. It's a tough reality, but you'll end up where you're meant to be 🧡

I don't know why I am making this post, I don't think there is any advice that can solve this problem. Maybe I just need to share this with people to feel better.
So I was planning to study undergrad in the UK as an international student. I applied to the University of Birmingham, University of Leeds, University of Sheffield, University of Nottingham and Queen's University Belfast through UCAS this January. And guess what? I got accepted to Birmingham, Sheffield and QUB!! Still waiting for the decisions of Leeds and Nottingham. But the problem is that I can't study in them. I was supposed to apply to only Leeds and Sheffield as these two have a 50% scholarship and a 10,000 pounds per year scholarship, respectively, so that I could afford the humongous amount of tuition fees. I applied to the other 3 just for fun, to see if I get accepted in them. Now even if I get the scholarships in either Sheffield or Leeds, it will be hard for my family to afford my tuition fees (and impossible without the scholarship). I didn't want my family to sacrifice so much for me so I decided that I am not gonna come to the UK. I am going to a country nearer to my home country (in Asia).
But I have been broken ever since I made this decision because I have been planning to study in the UK for quite a few years, hence the good international A level results that got me in such great unis. I feel so angry and sad and useless now. I have lost all my motivation to study. I feel like not going to uni and start travelling the world or something to forget about all this.
So yeah here is my little rant. Thank you for reading this. And I have a piece of advice for you all: Never become attached to anything or anyone like a goal, dream, a specific university, money or your partner. Because, trust me, one day you will be tested and this attachment will hurt you a lot.

I am sorry for what you’re going through but I don’t agree with your last point, dreams and goals can be amazing motivators, you likely partially owe your high A-level grades to the motivators you had, even if that dream doesn’t seem like it’s going to come true right now, you never know what the future might bring, dreams can reshape, adapt and change, that doesn’t mean that they are useless and shouldn’t be something to chase. Every dream that doesn’t work out is redirection or a future opportunity, without light at the end of the tunnel how do you get through all the tunnels that life throws at you.
I managed to get an offer from my dream uni and my UK citizenship allows me to pay UK fees and I know how fortunate I am to have both of these things, my offer is still conditional and I am still working towards my dream and it’s the biggest motivator i’ve ever had.
Just because your situation has changed doesn’t mean your dreams have to change, you can work hard, get the money to go into further study in the UK if that’s what you want or your dreams may change, just don’t give up on the chase 🌟

I kinda hate to admit that you are right. In my mind, all I was thinking was that I had one dream and it's crushed. So life is over. I think it's really easy to be negative and just give up instead of actively trying to convince myself that everything is going to be okay and I will find a new goal.
But bro I'm really happy that your dreams are becoming true!! This kind of made my day. Gives me hope.
Thank you for your words. I appreciate it.