I think I am lesbian
I’m struggling with some confusing thoughts and emotions lately, and I could really use some advice or support. I’ve been having intrusive thoughts about being a lesbian, which has led to a lot of anxiety, but also some mixed feelings. For context, I’m a 24-year-old woman, and I’ve always identified as straight. My crushes have mostly been on fictional male characters, and I’ve never had any interest in women before.
But recently, I’ve been feeling unsure. I started reading GL content (Asumi-chan is Interested in Lesbian Brothels) and BL content (like Ten Count), which triggered some internal confusion. I started having intrusive thoughts and urges about kissing or even having sex with women, and I’m unsure whether this is genuine attraction or just anxiety playing tricks on me. I feel both drawn to and indifferent about it at the same time, which only adds to my confusion.
I’ve even watched lesbian porn and felt aroused, but I noticed that I would skip parts of it and have mixed reactions to it. My mind seems to want to explore these thoughts, but I also feel some resistance to it. I’ve had some dreams where I felt excited, indifferent, or even disappointed, and I’ve experienced physical sensations like chills or tightness in my chest, but little to no anxiety overall.
I’ve been talking with my mom about it, and she doesn’t think I have OCD, though I’ve read online that it might be a form of obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) because of my intrusive thoughts and the anxiety they sometimes bring. My therapist thinks it could be anxiety-related, but I’m not sure if my feelings are anxiety or genuine attraction. I’ve been feeling a bit stuck, unsure of whether these feelings are just a temporary phase or if I’m actually discovering something new about my sexuality.
I’m also concerned about how this fits into my cultural and religious background, as it’s a topic that makes me feel conflicted. I know my feelings are complex and don’t have to be rushed, but I’m looking for some clarity or at least some understanding from others who might have gone through something similar.
Has anyone else experienced this? Is it possible to feel attracted to women but still be uncertain? Or is this something I should just explore more slowly without labeling myself right away?
I appreciate any advice or support.
Thanks for reading.
But recently, I’ve been feeling unsure. I started reading GL content (Asumi-chan is Interested in Lesbian Brothels) and BL content (like Ten Count), which triggered some internal confusion. I started having intrusive thoughts and urges about kissing or even having sex with women, and I’m unsure whether this is genuine attraction or just anxiety playing tricks on me. I feel both drawn to and indifferent about it at the same time, which only adds to my confusion.
I’ve even watched lesbian porn and felt aroused, but I noticed that I would skip parts of it and have mixed reactions to it. My mind seems to want to explore these thoughts, but I also feel some resistance to it. I’ve had some dreams where I felt excited, indifferent, or even disappointed, and I’ve experienced physical sensations like chills or tightness in my chest, but little to no anxiety overall.
I’ve been talking with my mom about it, and she doesn’t think I have OCD, though I’ve read online that it might be a form of obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) because of my intrusive thoughts and the anxiety they sometimes bring. My therapist thinks it could be anxiety-related, but I’m not sure if my feelings are anxiety or genuine attraction. I’ve been feeling a bit stuck, unsure of whether these feelings are just a temporary phase or if I’m actually discovering something new about my sexuality.
I’m also concerned about how this fits into my cultural and religious background, as it’s a topic that makes me feel conflicted. I know my feelings are complex and don’t have to be rushed, but I’m looking for some clarity or at least some understanding from others who might have gone through something similar.
Has anyone else experienced this? Is it possible to feel attracted to women but still be uncertain? Or is this something I should just explore more slowly without labeling myself right away?
I appreciate any advice or support.
Thanks for reading.
OCD does not really exist, anyway, it is fine to be lesbian.
It's important to explore your sexuality if that is something you feel you may need to do, but don't put a label on yourself. A lot of women also watch lesbian porn I don't feel like it's because they are attracted to it more so they can relate more with the sensuality of it because women tend to be more gentle and sensual where as when watching straight porn it can get quite boring. Just be you.
Original post by BlueCst32
I’m struggling with some confusing thoughts and emotions lately, and I could really use some advice or support. I’ve been having intrusive thoughts about being a lesbian, which has led to a lot of anxiety, but also some mixed feelings. For context, I’m a 24-year-old woman, and I’ve always identified as straight. My crushes have mostly been on fictional male characters, and I’ve never had any interest in women before.
But recently, I’ve been feeling unsure. I started reading GL content (Asumi-chan is Interested in Lesbian Brothels) and BL content (like Ten Count), which triggered some internal confusion. I started having intrusive thoughts and urges about kissing or even having sex with women, and I’m unsure whether this is genuine attraction or just anxiety playing tricks on me. I feel both drawn to and indifferent about it at the same time, which only adds to my confusion.
I’ve even watched lesbian porn and felt aroused, but I noticed that I would skip parts of it and have mixed reactions to it. My mind seems to want to explore these thoughts, but I also feel some resistance to it. I’ve had some dreams where I felt excited, indifferent, or even disappointed, and I’ve experienced physical sensations like chills or tightness in my chest, but little to no anxiety overall.
I’ve been talking with my mom about it, and she doesn’t think I have OCD, though I’ve read online that it might be a form of obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) because of my intrusive thoughts and the anxiety they sometimes bring. My therapist thinks it could be anxiety-related, but I’m not sure if my feelings are anxiety or genuine attraction. I’ve been feeling a bit stuck, unsure of whether these feelings are just a temporary phase or if I’m actually discovering something new about my sexuality.
I’m also concerned about how this fits into my cultural and religious background, as it’s a topic that makes me feel conflicted. I know my feelings are complex and don’t have to be rushed, but I’m looking for some clarity or at least some understanding from others who might have gone through something similar.
Has anyone else experienced this? Is it possible to feel attracted to women but still be uncertain? Or is this something I should just explore more slowly without labeling myself right away?
I appreciate any advice or support.
Thanks for reading.
But recently, I’ve been feeling unsure. I started reading GL content (Asumi-chan is Interested in Lesbian Brothels) and BL content (like Ten Count), which triggered some internal confusion. I started having intrusive thoughts and urges about kissing or even having sex with women, and I’m unsure whether this is genuine attraction or just anxiety playing tricks on me. I feel both drawn to and indifferent about it at the same time, which only adds to my confusion.
I’ve even watched lesbian porn and felt aroused, but I noticed that I would skip parts of it and have mixed reactions to it. My mind seems to want to explore these thoughts, but I also feel some resistance to it. I’ve had some dreams where I felt excited, indifferent, or even disappointed, and I’ve experienced physical sensations like chills or tightness in my chest, but little to no anxiety overall.
I’ve been talking with my mom about it, and she doesn’t think I have OCD, though I’ve read online that it might be a form of obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) because of my intrusive thoughts and the anxiety they sometimes bring. My therapist thinks it could be anxiety-related, but I’m not sure if my feelings are anxiety or genuine attraction. I’ve been feeling a bit stuck, unsure of whether these feelings are just a temporary phase or if I’m actually discovering something new about my sexuality.
I’m also concerned about how this fits into my cultural and religious background, as it’s a topic that makes me feel conflicted. I know my feelings are complex and don’t have to be rushed, but I’m looking for some clarity or at least some understanding from others who might have gone through something similar.
Has anyone else experienced this? Is it possible to feel attracted to women but still be uncertain? Or is this something I should just explore more slowly without labeling myself right away?
I appreciate any advice or support.
Thanks for reading.
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