I'm Disgusted....

Apparently, my router doesn't save internet history.

how to find that out?

Basically, I searched up if my internet provider saves internet search history on their data, and legit sources confirm they don't, including my own internet provider.
Luckily for me, I will be careful with how long I spend on the internet, scroll or what I search up next time. I don't want to traumatise or scare myself again. I can barely sleep anymore.

What if the police are investigating me? Even if I hate that content and codemn it completely, along with the digusting pedophiles that watch it, even if it happened years ago.

why are they investigating you?

I said what if they are secretly investigating me or am I being paranoid?

if you just accidentally stumbled upon that stuff, without actively researching it, then you have no reason to be paranoid.

Yeah, cuz the thing is i have accidently stumbled across it many times, but because of that, it made me wonder what keywords can be typed into Google that triggers a safety or a warning response for users on the internet. I was also wondering what Google Images was doing about this abhorrent content too, because there's no way something so horrendous, cruel and dark can exist, like it has to be fake, because how can something like this exist. You know what I mean?
I was unfortunately abused as a child from the ages of 8 to 17, and I just didn't want to believe it's true, and if I saw it, I wanted to report it.

idk you kinda make it sound as if you purposely typed in a bunch of messed-up keywords, to be honest. i don't think that sort of content is as easily accessible as you're making it out to be because, despite being online for so many years, I've never encountered it. i mean, gore videos, sure, but child abuse content? nah.

Yeah, cuz the thing is i have accidently stumbled across it many times, but because of that, it made me wonder what keywords can be typed into Google that triggers a safety or a warning response for users on the internet. I was also wondering what Google Images was doing about this abhorrent content too, because there's no way something so horrendous, cruel and dark can exist, like it has to be fake, because how can something like this exist. You know what I mean?
I was unfortunately abused as a child from the ages of 8 to 17, and I just didn't want to believe it's true, and if I saw it, I wanted to report it.