I just finished doing my UAL Chelsea interview for fine art, which I only got because I also signed up for their foundation apparently and I did terribly. The interviewer didn't really greet me and immediately got to asking me questions. I honestly knew i was going to be rejected right off the bat. I've had other interviews and they weren't as nerve racking and awkward as this one. I barely even knew what to say honestly. The interviewer told me I wasn't right for the course and said he'll move my application to the drawing course at Camberwell. I honestly don't want to do that course because I really enjoy painting and don't think I would be okay with just drawing for 3 years after building up an interest in oil painting for the past 4 years, I don't want to just throw that all away. And I mean I REALLY built up my skills for painting for the past 4 years, I have no intention of stopping. I feel as though they should give an option to interview in person because it just feels more authentic but that's not the point.
I questioned why they even gave me an interview, they admitted they found I was more suited for their foundation course or their drawing course even before the interview and that they hope I get into those instead. Although UAL Chelsea was my last option for unis in London (4th out of the 4) I will admit the interview did bother me. I feel as though they initially wanted to reject me anyway so I wondered why they even gave me an interview to begin with.
The whole university application has been quite off putting for me in general, I find it difficult to speak to others in detail, often not sure with my words and i'm a very paranoid person. It's especially worse because I've gotten a response/ have been accepted into all my other universities except the 2 I ACTUALLY want to go to. I honestly doubt i'll get into my top one, UCL slade school of fine art, especially after I flopped the interview I just did... I'm just deeply bothered that the ones I don't actually care about are the ones that have been so quick to accept me whilst the ones I'm super serious about are just dead silent, no response no nothing.
Is anyone else struggling/have struggled with the whole uni application? I mean I'm seriously on the verge of giving up I feel lost and as I said, I'm such a paranoid person so this all really plays with my emotions.