what do you do when you just can't function anymore?

Complain about to someone or type about it (to get it off my chest), then try to get back to normal. Or lay in bed or work or do things that make me happy.
Usually what I do when things are bad.

Sorry that things are tough right now ciel. Id see a psychiatrist if thats possible for you.

the only thing in life i actually cared about - art - has become nothing but a source of frustration for me now tbh.
i do wanna get back to normal but it seems impossible atm

How has art become a source of frustration?

Sorry you are struggling, Ciel. Without sugarcoating, you need to see a doctor but I also get why you wouldn't want to and it would be hypocritical of me to say I would. So just sending hugs and hope things get easier somehow

creative block... nothing inspires me anymore... i don’t even feel like doing it. and seeing other artists succeed just infuriates me

tbh, at this point, i don’t believe this is something that can be treated. i think this is the real me. but even if i wanted to, i can’t do that anymore. i recently had a conflict with my psychiatrist and the clinic, and now i don’t think i’ll ever be able to step foot there again without them calling the police on me.

Can you find another clinic? I used to feel like things couldnt be helped until I found a really great psychistrist who somehow did all the things to turn it around. Just because it didnt work out with one doesnt mean there is nobody that can do something for you.

i'd have to go through all the initial consultations etc. again, and i'm not sure if i’m up for it. i don’t know what to do anymore, or even what i want. i just regret how i made a mess of everything. at least i had access to benzos from a legal source before, with 0 risk

Sorry you are struggling, Ciel. Without sugarcoating, you need to see a doctor but I also get why you wouldn't want to and it would be hypocritical of me to say I would. So just sending hugs and hope things get easier somehow

A few months of readjustment sounds better than indefinite amounts of time struggling alone. Plus, if nothing else, replacing your street meds with the legit medication should be enough of a reason to return to the psychiatrists.
On that note, have you thought that maybe a reason you dont feel so great could be because youre essentially off your medication? I dunno the context in which youre getting these off the street, but you went from taking a regulated dosage to something that likely contains only a fraction of the actual drug ( if it contains any at all.. )

Same sending hugs too
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tbh, at this point, i don’t believe this is something that can be treated. i think this is the real me. but even if i wanted to, i can’t do that anymore. i recently had a conflict with my psychiatrist and the clinic, and now i don’t think i’ll ever be able to step foot there again without them calling the police on me.

my life seemed to be heading in the right direction for a couple of weeks, but now things are worse than ever and everything feels too much. even the most basic everyday things, like getting dressed or showering, feel like too much for me to handle now. let alone any relationship stuff, like going out together or having sex. i don't want to do any of it anymore, everything repulses me, i feel so ******* filthy .
without sugarcoating, what would you guys do if you were in my situation?

that's true.. i never expected things to get this bad ever again tbh. but it always happens in the end.
they seem legit tbh - even the packaging. i don't think they're mixed with anything, i mean surely i would be able to tell the difference? but they work just as well.

tbh, at this point, i don’t believe this is something that can be treated. i think this is the real me. but even if i wanted to, i can’t do that anymore. i recently had a conflict with my psychiatrist and the clinic, and now i don’t think i’ll ever be able to step foot there again without them calling the police on me.