To give some context, why I am so stressed, I am 27 years old, about to turn 28 near the end of this month, I feel like my time is running out to be a 'successful artist.' In addition to that, I am from the United States and am terrified of being stuck there because of political reasons, I recognise this is ironic because I applied to two different programs back in my home country but that was before my country put Trump in charge. I applied to Oxford's Fine Art program, RISD's Photography program, UCLA's New Genres Program, Slade's Fine Art program, UAL's Contemporary Photography program, and the Courtauld's MA Curation program. I got no's from Slade and UCLA, and have been waitlisted on Oxford and RISD. Since I applied for round 2 of UAL, I have not heard back yet, and Courtauld's curation program has not gotten back to me either. I am terrified right now that I will not get in this time round to any of these schools, and I recognise I should have cast a broader net, but due to other responsibilities and an emergency, I just didn't have the time and I am so angry with myself about this. I am so worried about not getting into any program as well, I have no idea what I will do after this, I had such a steady life plan ahead of me based on acceptances from each of these programs. I just do not know what to do and I feel like I am falling apart.