But at the same time, it's so natural to feel desire sometimes. I hate getting ghosted on the apps, why match if you're going to ghost. I can either live on my own with no expectations of having a woman ever (stable mood) or live hoping to find chemistry and a woman but be constantly disappointed. What do i do? I don't think I'm ugly but that's subjective, not sure if I should post a pic. I definitely think something goes wrong after my looks and initial impression.
What i would do is change the perspective so YOU are in control; i.e. I do not have what I want YET but I will continue to WORK on MYSELF to attract the things I want. Think about it, have a brief reflection and then embrace action and do what you need for yourself. Relationships are a give and take as is dating, prepare for that by becoming the best version of yourself.