Trying so hard to be straight

Hi guys I think I am bi so i am trying to watch straight films to see if I’m straight so I guess I am watching films to see I find girls attractive.
I apologise is if this sounds really weird but it’s hard for me come out as I just don’t want be gay so I am just gong to act straight and have a girlfriend.
So that nobody’s thinks I’m gay I hope this doesn’t not offend anyone as I have gay friends myself. So I guess i am really conscience that I am gay.
But I also think I am in love with this girl at work.

If youre in love with girls at work then youre not completely gay. It sounds like you want to explore your attraction to men, anyhow, and the only thing that will probably sort those feelings out is actually exploring it.

i think you just have ocd, dude. you post this every week. check out this article:
https://www.mcleanhospital.org/essential/so-ocd

Yeah I keep posting it I Donna guess it’s just a habit to be honest. I don’t why ask people if I’m straight if not as I just like girls as I hope have girlfriend soon in which on all never really happens.
Like I have never had sex with a girl before this probable why I am afraid of Being intimate with a girl I knew my shots with honestly attractive and thought I was I definitely gay.
But that’s why ugh I dunno sorry if I whimig it about to you if when. You seen this post before I really want do identify as straight. In whi I am and I can happy to move on which it seems lying to myself

if you're attracted to girls, you're not gay... you could be bi but that's about it

But I’m definitely straight and want a girlfriend so I guess I am then I feel I likes but if weirdo just posting this stuff but I just wanted to have some advice but I will try and be straight and see how it goes.

Yeah, I agree with the people above. None of us are psychiatrists but it seems much more like you have intrusive thoughts about the idea of being gay, than any actual attraction to real life men - which sounds like OCD features.
This is something that would be completely reasonable to see a psychiatrist about. Being gay isn't a mental illness (obviously) but having intrusive thoughts and feeling the need to continually reassure yourself about whether you're gay, could well be.

I wonder if this is the same poster who wanted to know if masturbating to straight porn, where there might at times be a penis on screen, made them gay. There’s definitely a familiar tone of “please reassure me”.
Either way, agree with the above. This is more about the fixation with one’s sexuality, rather than just being straight, gay, bi or anywhere in between.

So is it just more taboo after watching a lot of trans porn even though I just been watching shemale and girl or shemale with guys and girls?

Nothing’s taboo. Watch whatever floats your boat.

Probs shouldn’t off said taboo as maybe it sounded a bit harsh. But I have spoken to people who are gay who are my mates actually.

They said no your not gay and said are you comfortable with a girl or guy and said definitely with a girl.

Yes but those people aren’t you. They don’t get to tell you whether you’re gay or not.
The point above is that no one cares. Maybe you watch some trans porn because you’re straight but still find it hot. Maybe you’re gay or bi but don’t want to act on those desires in real life. It doesn’t make any difference unless you’re making yourself neurotic obsessing over what it means.

I can confirm I’m straight as I like girls and want a girlfriend at some stage in my life.

I think I am bi so i am trying to watch straight films to see if I’m straight so I guess I am watching films to see I find girls attractive.

I apologise is if this sounds really weird but it’s hard for me come out as I just don’t want be gay so I am just gong to act straight and have a girlfriend.