I'm currently under the care of the mental health team in the UK. However, I don't get along with my CPN so I'm not engaging with them or taking medication because I disagree with my diagnostics and dispute them. I don't like mental health services due to overall negative experiences in the past which only trickle into the present day. Well this is a very bad impression of the mental health team, isn't it? I'm under mental health services, and I'm offered next to nothing, just a CPN appointment that sees me once a month. So I'm choosing not to engage with them or take medication. I will not comply with them under any given circumstances. I would like to inform you that I'm under adult social services for social care. I need to have a personal assistant to help me with day-to-day living however, there are certain things I cannot recover from like my personality disorders for instance
Because personality disorders are a fault of the ego, not necessarily a fault of the outdated theory that there's a chemical imbalance in my brain. I would prefer to stay off medications to not interfere with my emotions or my intellect.
This is the pattern that I've noticed with mental health services in England getting admitted to a hospital getting a diagnosis, taking your meds shutting up and crawling into a corner. It is all obey obey obey now shut up.
I've been in seclusion many times I just become more aggressive and more agitated and irritated with care assistants arguing with me and nurses arguing with me trying to manipulate me to engage with them which I would not because they're rubbish and I never forgive past orthodoxies. I will not forgive anybody in there!
The thing is the more the seclusion traumatizes me the more. I'll just take it out on the staff I don't care if I end up in the nick, I don't care if I get prosecuted, I don't care if I go to prison, This is the mood they put me in I don't care. I don't care. I don't care.
I really don't like the police to be quite fair. I have a vengeance against them and the Vendetta which never dies out!
It's like who wants to deal with the police anyway, not me. I'm one of those people that will never want to deal with the police or the pigs there are also know across the UK.
I generally cannot stand the police or authority figures in general.