ok so pls someone tell me if im going insane
but my best friend at school literally CANNOT go 5 mins without (i dont wanna say boasting but idk what else to say) about how much shes revising and the work shes doing. like every single day i get a detailed breakdown of the ‘5 hours of physics she did last night’ and the ‘100 quotes she learnt’ and how she gor 78/80 in her most recent maths test (she looks up how to do it anyway?!?)
now its not just a couple days or in real life, i get actual 10 minute long videos on snap every single night of everything shes done that night and its constant.
and obviously at first i was very happy for her, im proud of her for being so motivated but its really bringing me down in terms of constantly feeling like im not doing enough, when in reality i am, im just trying to preserve my mental health at the same time, and its also making me feel like shes putting me on a pedestal as something to compare herself to, or as a way to make herself feel better and seek validation (this is what my counsellor said) as im someone who consistently manages to get 9s with quite low effort and maybe shes annoyed idk??? but am i being a selfish bum or is this valid to get ****ed off about? i just dont understand why she needs to constantly tell me how much work shes done?? i dont come out of a practice paper and immediately think OMG LET ME TELL HER I GOT 76/80!!!!