Insecurity and A levels

Basically I have fancied this one boy for almost 2 years now (embarrassing ik)
He doesn’t like me back lol
I am so so so insecure and I hate it so much it drains me and ruins my life and other relationships with people
Every time I see one small interaction with him and another girl I go absolutely insane.
I know I shouldn’t be like this but I can’t control it. For background context in the past relationships haven’t been well for me, I always fancied boys and they got gfs and I feel like that’s one reason why I am like this as I constantly get rejected .
But anyways, with A levels leavers was 4 days ago and the boy I fancy went on a night out and I saw photos of him on girls stories and I absolutely went insane
This threw me off revision as I was so angry but I don’t want this silly boy to ruin my education but honestly I just hate feeling this insecure as it’s just unhealthy for me and people around me
I blocked him for context

Really really force yourself to ignore everything going on with boys. If he doesn't like you, there's no point still liking him, it's a waste of your precious time and energy. Focus on exams and get off social media, just immerse yourself in studying. If you're insecure, try some positive affirmations or do something that makes you feel good (maybe going to the gym or cooking). Good luck with exams

ohh god why is my forgotten ptsd coming back after seeing this! I can relate on so many levels. I know its gonna sound really immature or whatever but I had a previous situation about 2 yrs ago (i'm turning 17 soon) with a guy, that I had an ENORMOUS crush on. And I developed it just before Covid. Like....it was no small thing I reaaaally liked him. Going to places I knew he'd be and just standing there for a good hour just to see him for like 30 seconds when he left. Or even getting jealous when I saw him talking to these girls (his cousins lol) and hugging them and stuff. I even cried myself to sleep one time as well I was that obsessed.(GUYS DON'T JUDGE PLEAASE!! I'VE LEARNED NOW😭) But I was just so soo hard. It was affecting my grades and my emotional state as well tbf, and then during lockdown it just became ten times worse. It was just the worst opportunity for my feelings and darker thoughts to really overcome and consume me. And I'm not going to lie, I was in a really dark place. (not just because of him but everything as well. His situation was only one of the problems I was trying to face) And I couldn't confide in anyone either because I was just too embarrassed. But...one thing changed that and it was something my mum told me about a friend she had in uni. How she had a boyfriend and became so invested in him that she began to neglect her studies to hang with him more (He was emotionally manipulative I think) But then just before exams, he broke up with her, and she just broke. And basically failed all of her exams. I think after listening to that I just snapped out of my ditsy romantic obsession with this guy who was never gonna look at me. (what i told myself to believe anyway) But slowly I dunno why/what/how but I basically just lost feelings for him and started focusing on myself and my studies (start of gcses really) and thankfully I just lost all interest in him. I mean he's still around aaand......every girl I know has a fat crush on him now as well MMA fighter, hot, fit etc (you get my point). But I've just taught myself to ignore it now tbf, and its probably been the best choice I've ever made. I don't know why I was so obsessed with him in the first place anyways lol, he's not even my type. Not trying to say don't catch feelings or whatever, but if its affecting studies to the point where your performing less than you could then, just don't take the risk, for you or your mental health. Its not worth it. Focus on yourself and trust! 😀 Dw your not the only one who's been through stuff like that and those feelings are reaal. thats my story anyway lol. Hope it helped! <3