I just took my first A-Level exam, I'll be honest it was OK but not really what I want obviously, felt like a D or C grade exam. I practically put blood sweat and tears into my work and form some reason I am not seeing results. I'm predicted AAB but based on what I'm getting right now idk. I wasn't even working that hard then so I honestly think that's just a one off barakah I got.
I already read previous forum posts but for some reason people are quite pessimistic in assumption of the students thinking its their fault for not trying? I understand they're successful and all with high grades coming to give brothers/sisters advice, but that doesn't give them the right to assume other people are not successful because they are "lazy", they may have problems that are out of their control.
I am trying but it feels like mental torture now every time I try to study.
It really sucks I did want to become one of the best in my field but Im not sure if its possible now. Is it possible that the perception of the cause of my circumstances is not correct? Like sometimes I feel like im deceiving myself to not work on purpose because the solution is nowhere in sight. I don't now I just feel like im not seeing something here, maybe Allah willed it this way and I cant do anything about it?
Btw yes I do fard practices with quite allot of sunnahs. Just doesn't make logical sense, I'm more disciplined religiously now more than ever, my life feels even more free of negativity then it ever has, should that discipline not spread into academics?