Hate my life what can I do?

I am 22 years old. I am autistic and currently waiting for a possible ADHD diagnoses. My parents don't understand me and they don't even try. My interests are very limited and different from most people as well as being considered childish if I mentioned it to them. I currently work as a Radiology Assistant at a hospital which I enjoy but I find a bit samey at times but most jobs get like that I suppose. I don't like being around people as I feel I have a lot of energy so at home I don't sit with my family, not because I don't want to but because I literally can't. I am not very intelligent at all, I remember always being in the bottom sets at school and coming bottom in the class and getting some of the worse GCSE's in my year. I don't really understand or know how to understand the world around me. It is so embarrassing and I don't have any friends and never had a relationship. It isn't that I don't want to but I don't know how to or how to want to. I know you will probably say most people feel like this at some point but I really feel like this. I have tried to say yes to a few more things this year and I have been mostly successful so far. I have also got my driving test at the end of next month (learning hasn't been easy). But I feel like I have missed out on so much that other people my age can manage with ease. I am not saying they don't have moments of feeling like me but I know it isn't as bad as me. Sorry if this is a bit of a rant but this is genuinely how I feel. What can I do?

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Anonymous #2

Hiyaaa,

I'm really sorry to hear that you are feeling this way. I'm not hear to give you a logical solution - I can't even do that even if I tried as your experiences are unique to you and I don't know whether I'm a good person to be doling out advice. I think the most I can do is be a listening ear and say your feelings are valid and life sucks. But know that this isn't forever. Unfortunately, we live in a world with wacky standards on right and wrong, dumb and smart etc.

Take life day by day, and never strive only to survive, but to live life to the fullest. Take that leap of faith now, you never know. And if you ever need someone to rant to again, feel free.

Hope this does even a little to help 🙂