Almost 30M

Hi guys almost 30 and I think I will never get a girlfend. I feel like it might be do to watching porn. And I feel like a loser even though I feel tall fake and abs that doesn’t suggest that I can’t get a girlfriend since I asked a girl and that’s the first time I ever cried.
I guess feel somewhat attracted to her but she with someone else so I guess that will never happen with me and her. But I have officially given up with girls because I am to afraid of rejection but I had this same thoughts over and over and i am ******* done with.
I know guys who are older been in this situation but I feel like I am ready for a relationship but I am scared to know what’s that is like.

You said you have a fear of rejection?
What’s worse the fear of rejection or the fear of being alone?
The reality is your mindset is dragging you down. It’s not hard to attract unless you’re not sane yourself. Get out there, women in your workplace, women on the street go be polite and put yourself out there.
Quit porn nothing good will come out of it.
I know it’s easier said than done but this is how it is. Make a plan and do it.
Also don’t align your age to your goals. Some people get married at 18 some at 50 and some don’t at all. Take it to your own pace.