I’m in year 12 right now, about 6.. ish… days before the mocks and I’ve started to think that medicine just is not the right option for me. I’m not sure if it’s burnout, but I completely switched my mindset 2 days ago and I don’t feel much different now. Right now, I am doing Chemistry, Biology, English Language and I am predicted DBB with an A* in EPQ. I have spent so much time revising chemistry over the half term and nothing seems to be changing at all. It has taken so much time away from my other subjects - I don’t even think I have revised english this whole year because I am so focused on that subject. I was thinking and - for my GCSES, I had to work so so so hard to scrape a 7 in science and maths (which is the bare minimum for medicine??) . For english I did next to nothing the entire year and I got a 9 and an 8. I just think that maybe I am going for the wrong thing. I’ve been practicing the UCAT and so far my strongest area is verbal reasoning too and I’ve looked at the LNAT and it’s mainly verbal reasoning so maybe I would have a better shot at that?
I’ve always had an interest in subjects like history as well, I think I like debating, but I feel like because I was so driven to do medicine I disregarded any of my other interests and went straight for science. I’ve been super focused on being a doctor, I’ve organised work experience at 2 different hospitals, gp practices, I have a volunteering position in a hospital, I don’t know what to do now. What I do know is that, I’m considering dropping chemistry and staying for another year doing a different subject because there is no way I’m going to be able to slave my way through a subject that is insanely hard and I no longer have the passion for. I know law doesn’t require essay based subjects, but im gonna be real with myself, it will be insanely hard to get higher than a C for chemistry - and most law schools require AAA. I’ve thought about keeping biology incase I decide not to do law, keeping english language, taking up english literature and history. I know it’s four alevels but I’ve finished the first half of the course for english language and biology so perhaps it will be easier to manage.
Honestly, I’m in a tricky situation. I’ve spoken to all of my teachers and they seem quite supportive, I don’t mind doing an extra year, my mum is persuading me to keep going with biology but other than that she seems relatively supportive. I’ve watched videos on what type of areas I’d want to look into and I think international / human rights law is really interesting. The problems right now are that I haven’t told my dad, or sister, I told my brother and he called me an idiot. My sister did a whole law degree and decided not to do law - I’ve heard her reasons why, and whenever I’ve brought up she really discourages me from doing it. When I spoke about it a year ago, she thought I just wanted to do it for the money and that I thought it was like suits.. I don’t think she wanted to go into it because her teachers were saying that it was a male dominated field or something like that. It’s gotten pretty bad my mums telling me to lie to her and say I want to do teaching? Honestly I’m so confused why does the education system expect us to know what we want to do at the age of 17?? I wish I figured this out after the mocks because I don’t want to touch chemistry now!! Literally HELP