I'm 19, I just resat all three of my A-Levels as a private candidate. And from what it looks like, I'm beyond cooked ahaha. Got EEU in summer 2024, no clue if I can match that this summer, but what I did realise is that time for this when you do nothing about it goes in a flash, like genuinely. Last summer felt like yesterday and here I am today a year later feeling nothing and yet something changed at the same time. Why I wanted to post this is that, along the way when I was reflecting during that under 2 month exam period with whatever happened this year on my own or those 2 years in sixth form was that there were moments or definitely periods in time where I could've done something atleast, struggling with a certain topic or question- you need to ask a teacher or tutor. Because in my case once I found something remotely difficult I just internalised the idea in my head that I'll eventually come back to it or that I'll somehow get it done someday. Those days never came, unless I was cramming and I didn't learn it anyway.
Another thing was that when I did cram in them 2 months this year, I realised with enough practise and repetition it was most definitely possible to get a solid grade, but at that point it was too late of course. In my situation my environment at home isn't the best, but there was a library 20 minutes away from it that I could've walked and got work done in. I never went, why? I thought specifically in my area people wouldn't adhere to proper rules of a library and that it would be packed. How would I know if I haven't tried? However, there was another library under hour walk away from where I live which was much better than I anticipated, when did I visit it? 5 days after my last exam loool, so all I could do really was borrow a book. Things like this are in your control, you just have to take a little bit of ownership.
Thirdly, another factor which was probably a big detriment to my studying was my health, I have a condition where a key symptom is me being more prone to fatigue than the average person but also I would stay up so late or not sleep much at all. Adequate rest is so important to even function properly, alongside diet and exercise. If you yourself are not in the best condition, how can you do the things that you see are important in general. The other thing that I severely underestimated is mental health, well I don't know if I can call this a condition since it falls into a different category but I'll just say it for the sake of this point. Since I was a kid I always thought I had ADHD, I never addressed it since I thought nothing of and it was looked down on by people around me. But until now the things that I couldn't function in, pointed towards this, so I decided to ask my gp. Did a form and my answers show that I have signs that exhibit it. So I would have to be referred to a hospital and wait for basically a year or a year and a half to get an official assessment. If I did this a while ago I would've saved so much time and potentially seen better academic performance, maybe.
So finally, for you, the person who probably sat and read through this, or not. Don't feel like there is nothing you can do or that it is hopeless to get through it, there is is ALWAYS something you can decide, whether a big action or a little one in situations where things feel out of your control. Feel like you can't study well at home or in class, that journey to a good library and spending atleast an hour or two of work there is invaluable and productive compared to sitting around for ages at home or in your frees doing little to nothing. If you have any questions or are struggling with something, speak up and seek support, it can be through anything: forums, people around you, friends or even professionals, internalising things and suppressing them will have a detriment to the future, this applies to any facet, mental or physical health or even a exam problem in school. Address these as soon as possible, you might have a lot of things or very few things, go through them little by little and you find so much improvement. Feeling lost or behind, the most important thing is to be consistent with a routine or plan, follow it everyday even if it's a little bit. Doing a little everyday is much better than overloading yourself in a week and never even looking at it ever again. Because believe me, you don't want to be in a situation like me where everything about my life is unclear academically and outside of it, I didn't even contemplate the other goals I had until recently. But yeah, failure is a certainty, even if it's insignificant or even something very decisive, the most important thing is to understand what went "wrong" and to look past that and improve, since everyone struggles with something but it does eventually die down, it's up to you to show strength no matter how long it takes. I hope this provides some level of value to anyone who read this yapfest, because there is something you can do, where I couldn't. Thanks.