So basically I’m a sensible students gets the top grades aiming for top uni with a stereotypically ‘good degree’. Context I am 16 and I just feel like I am living a life so focused on the future rather than the present. I want to have the phase of doing ‘dumb teenage things’ getting drunk, sneaking out to go to a friends, having a boyfriend but I honestly don’t know how I can achieve this- my friends are not these kinds of people and 2 in particular want to be included and do these cool things- like this time (only time ever lol) I was invited to a house party but just went and told there mums all sorts of things about how their was alcohol and other things knowing they would tell my mother- who thank god still let my go- this action really got to me.
So basically most of my friends I can’t even trust to discuss this- don’t get me wrong I love them we have a great friendship and I’d say I only rly have one or 2 friends I would even consider to do these sorts of things but not really to be honest.
I don’t wanna like spiral and get drunk every week and I understand the unfortunate dangers of today but like I just want to have some key memories of dumb teenage years of fun- but the kinda fun which is seemed forbidden which makes the memories even more fond.
Will I get to experience some stuff at uni?- bear in mind I will be doing an intensive course but this doesn’t mean I am going to sacrifice my social life as current quality of life is so important to me