Hello All,
I am due to begin my undergraduate in Life Science and Global Sustainable Development at Warwick in 2 weeks. However, I am extremely worried / petrified and don’t want to go for a number of reasons.
1) first of all, I missed my grades for my dream course and uni (Geography at Cambridge) and am devastated as I worked really hard only to absolutely FLOP my a levels in the end. Most of my friends did so much better than me and I know I did really hard A levels but that doesn’t soften the blow and I just feel like a failure
2) I am really scared as a result, because I’m so stupid and missed my grades despite working so hard, i won’t be able to keep up with the workload at Warwick anyway
3) I feel less motivated towards my degree, not only due to autism and my mental health but the fact EVERYONE I know literally got into Warwick and its kind of standard for my area whereas i really wanted to venture out… I am also doing a really niche course and am scared about employment prospects as I want to be an Environmental Lawyer.
In fact, I’m not even sure if I’ll enjoy my course as it is really not where I want to go.
I can’t even reapply due to my home life either, my parents won’t let me even though it was my dream to study Geography at Cambridge, and I was the only person in my school who didn’t make their Oxbridge offer.
I feel like such a failure and don’t know what to do because I have really done awfully in my education so far and I can’t go back and correct it… I am deeply disappointed in my a level grades and just wish I could fix those…
Not sure what to do as I am extremely depressed and have been ever since I finished my A levels. Any reassurance or advice could help.