Overwhelmed.

Sorry I’m gonna have a bit of a rant rn
It’s 9pm and I’m so exhausted. Throwing up every morning pretty much and sick all day
So much homework and expectations left to do for tomorrow and my iPad is dead and taking years to charge.
I need a shower and my hamster needs cleaning out and I feel bad because I’ve been putting it off and I need to do the dishwasher.
I have my personal statement to reduce down by Monday which seems impossible and about 4 million people who want the world from me and more
I just started a new job with amazing pay but I honestly can’t be arsed and the shifts are way too much to balance with school. It was advertised as a barista job but I’m basically a glorified dishwasher for at least 6 months before I get anywhere near a coffee machine (which I was rlly looking forwards to) with a control freak manager
I’m in the middle of a pregnancy scare right now and that’s honestly so overwhelming and scary in itself and I rlly can’t tell if I’m preg or not or if I’m having a period or heavy implantation bleeding
Tried saying to my friends I was overwhelmed on the group chat and they all ignored me lolll and my boyfriend is asleep. I really do appreciate him, he’s my rock and I fear I put too much pressure on him sometimes
And yea my iPad still hasn’t charged fml
I’m so sorry for unloading all my life troubles to anyone reading this

that genuinely sounds terrible. and on top of everything your own friends not even seeming to care about everything you're going through must be even more tough. the end of school is such a strange time in itself as well with everything changing, but you have so many other things going on on top of all that, much be extra stressful. from a stranger to another stranger I hope things get better for you soon, and if it would mean anything to you I'd like to pray for you if it would be okay with you - i dont know a lot about mental health resources so its really all i can offer, absolutely no pressure to accept or reject. Take care and good luck with everything, I know it might not feel like it but you're stronger than you think