Hello,
I’m currently a first year undergraduate student ant an RG university who is really struggling with being overwhelmed and adjusting to university life.
For context, I am on the autism spectrum and was recently diagnosed with ADHD, and so this has always made adjusting to new places extremely difficult and takes longer than usual. I have settled in well and am enjoying liasing with my peers and am enjoying the life at university, however there is one fundamental problem with my life at university, and that is the constant anxiety about whether the course that I picked was correct. But there is a strong caveat.
For context - I had always struggled to know what to apply for when looking at university, and I think in the time from physically looking at universities to sending my application to starting life at uni, I have probably changed my ideas about which degree to take 3 or so times.
Now, the subjects are all within a similar semantic field to each other, in that all three largely lead to identical career paths, but what has swayed my idea on what to take has been the fear of going down a specific career path and therefore being locked into the opportunities within each degree’s field, but most importantly the fact I may get bored working or studying in each field that I took at when applying.
I’m now looking at switching my degree the second week at uni, should be early enough to switch, but there has been this conflict in my mind as to whether this other course is the correct one to move to. I considered the course I’m looking at switching to at the very beginning of degree hunting, and largely enjoy a lot of what is on the course, but what put me off was the opportunities at the end and whether I would be as emphatic about those as the degree itself. There were also, I thought, better ways of doing what I would’ve been interested in doing in the other degree in my current degree programme, however I am starting to have doubts and am therefore contemplating the switch for that reason. But then I do find that I’m enjoying a fair bit of what I’m doing at the moment and am finding it quite a nice challenge, but it’s obviously better to tackle these thoughts about switching, head on, at the beginning of the course, as after a few weeks it becomes very hard to change.
This has left me in a crap situation where I’m honestly not sure on what to do…I did anticipate that this would happen where I would be constantly second guessing my choices (didn’t help that I’d been worrying about this happening, I wouldn’t doubt, since earlier this year) and it just seems so hard to see myself sticking in one degree for the full 3 years. I wouldn’t say that I’m not an able student, I had strong A level/GCSE results, and I have a good work ethic, but these thoughts playing on my mind aren’t doing me any good, and ideally I should be settling these issues this week.
What would you suggest I do?
broadoaks
PS - sorry that this is really long/formal, I wanted to ensure everything was included!!