My dad spoilt everything again. Ik he loves us and does wtv we want but he says things thata he doesn't rekaise is so hurtful or doesn't rekiase until it's too late and it spoils everything. I'm tired of being happy one day and sad the next. I'm tired of not knowing when smth is gonna happen and whenever I'm happy I've this fear he's gonna say smth and make it sad. This has been going on for 4 years it was bit better and since last few weeks esp with his BP it's starting again. Idk idh anyone to talk to nor do I want to here cus idw reveal my acc but ye. I'm so tired and numb and unhappy. I just don't know. AndListening to how my mom feels just makes me more sad. I'm just gonna go to bed. They're talking rn but it's not tye same like we're not happy but ye idk I just wanted to get this our.