I really am a punching bag

BugsBunny1940

12

Over the past year or two, I've noticed how big a victim I am to a lot of people around me. I'm always getting laughed at and mocked for my Tourette's at school (there was even this one time in Year 11 where my entire class in IT mocked my outburst by banging their desks and making the same noises as me). I'm constantly getting picked on on the bus, I'm always getting taken advantage of by others (a lot of the time when I go to buy some food after school, they're always coming to me asking me for money and food), people always fake-fighting and having fake arguments whenever they see me t try to get a reaction out of me, being sexually harassed, people blaming me for having low self-esteem, and many more.

At first, I thought it was just harmless teasing, but I'm starting to think it's something more insidious. Thankfully, it's not as bad as it was in primary school (trust me, it was far worse), but still.

Reply 1

Flamingodreams

5

Hi bugs bunny, So sorry to hear that this is happening to you sounds awful what you are dealing with. Could you speak to a teacher or counsellor at school at all? Can your parents help? Take care

Reply 2

BugsBunny1940

OP

12

Thanks very much. I also have these Heads of Year that keep using my tics to gate-keep me from doing challenging super-curricular activities, such as Olympiads and things like running clubs or starting charity events, always reporting it to my parents as a "concern" and "taking on to much", despite the fact that STEM SMART is my only super-curricular, that I'm currently on A*AA, and that my peers do way more and they're completely fine with it. There was this one time I unfortunately witnessed domestic violence, and one of them at least cared enough to help me with my state at that time, but the other didn't even have the decency to ask how I was holding up, and the only thing she suggested I do was to "listen to positive music". Yeah, really professional info, right? And because of my poor self-esteem, I also have a lot of trouble saying no to people, and given everything I've told you, the only thing she said was to "just say no, it's simple".
I also sometimes get blamed for having tic outbursts.

Reply 3

BugsBunny1940

OP

12

And people also think I'm too weak a pushover for me to stand up to myself, even to those younger than me.

Reply 4

Phoneetc

10

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by BugsBunny1940

Thanks very much. I also have these Heads of Year that keep using my tics to gate-keep me from doing challenging super-curricular activities, such as Olympiads and things like running clubs or starting charity events, always reporting it to my parents as a "concern" and "taking on to much", despite the fact that STEM SMART is my only super-curricular, that I'm currently on A*AA, and that my peers do way more and they're completely fine with it. There was this one time I unfortunately witnessed domestic violence, and one of them at least cared enough to help me with my state at that time, but the other didn't even have the decency to ask how I was holding up, and the only thing she suggested I do was to "listen to positive music". Yeah, really professional info, right? And because of my poor self-esteem, I also have a lot of trouble saying no to people, and given everything I've told you, the only thing she said was to "just say no, it's simple".
I also sometimes get blamed for having tic outbursts.

I really feel for you - it's important that you address this now though. it's much easier to address some of these issues like low self-esteem before the semi-adult world starts (uni).
you've said that your heads of year are using your tics as an excuse to stop you from doing these activities. have you directly told them this?
looking back in hindsight, the best way to start expressing yourself is through teachers/anyone in a position of responsibility that isn't a student like you. teachers can't harass you in this way like students can

I really am a punching bag

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