tinyyy med vent >//<

quick vent so I had to resit + im on a gap year right now and I suppose I just feel so silly and stupid for still fighting to do medicine when there were many signs it wasn't for me but my ego was just too strong that I pushed through and now I'm faced with 2 rejections from what should have been my 'safe' options (well, getting 1930 and band 3 is crap to be frank 😭 I should have known then) I do have 1 interview from edge hill, not to say it's bad I don't think that, im just disappointed because I didn't really want to leave home since I live relatively near London and edge hill is a new university and for my future plans going to a university somewhere near Liverpool there's not that many opportunities ready like it is near London. on top of that, I feel the fact I resat and didn't get a single A* should have been an indication this degree isn't for me and I should have just gave up then, now im 20, 21 if I start university on a course I don't enjoy if I don't get any med offers and it just hurts. it hurts more that my parents pushed me to do medicine during GCSE but then the moment in year 13 when they had an inkling I was failing they told me I'd be lucky to get a B and from then on they haven't supported my medicine dream since. im not saying I deserve to get into medicine, there are so many other people out there who deserve it, no one told me to self sabotage myself because at the time I didn't want medicine, but I am saying that I really hope I do or else these past 2 years would have been utterly wasted and I truly don't know how to cope or move forward. I cry and panic every night just at the thought and getting another rejection truly made me numb to how dumb and naive I am... not all dreams are meant to be chased so if something doesn't come naturally to you guys don't go chasing it is my advice 🫩
tldr: I wished people were more honest / harsh that I shouldn't have done medicine and at least try to push me to do something else, no matter what my parents say

quick vent so I had to resit + im on a gap year right now and I suppose I just feel so silly and stupid for still fighting to do medicine when there were many signs it wasn't for me but my ego was just too strong that I pushed through and now I'm faced with 2 rejections from what should have been my 'safe' options (well, getting 1930 and band 3 is crap to be frank 😭 I should have known then) I do have 1 interview from edge hill, not to say it's bad I don't think that, im just disappointed because I didn't really want to leave home since I live relatively near London and edge hill is a new university and for my future plans going to a university somewhere near Liverpool there's not that many opportunities ready like it is near London. on top of that, I feel the fact I resat and didn't get a single A* should have been an indication this degree isn't for me and I should have just gave up then, now im 20, 21 if I start university on a course I don't enjoy if I don't get any med offers and it just hurts. it hurts more that my parents pushed me to do medicine during GCSE but then the moment in year 13 when they had an inkling I was failing they told me I'd be lucky to get a B and from then on they haven't supported my medicine dream since. im not saying I deserve to get into medicine, there are so many other people out there who deserve it, no one told me to self sabotage myself because at the time I didn't want medicine, but I am saying that I really hope I do or else these past 2 years would have been utterly wasted and I truly don't know how to cope or move forward. I cry and panic every night just at the thought and getting another rejection truly made me numb to how dumb and naive I am... not all dreams are meant to be chased so if something doesn't come naturally to you guys don't go chasing it is my advice 🫩
tldr: I wished people were more honest / harsh that I shouldn't have done medicine and at least try to push me to do something else, no matter what my parents say

Hi there! So sorry you're feeling this way. The last two years won't have been a waste. It sounds like you've learned some lessons beyond the subjects too. But it also sounds like you are maybe putting too much pressure on yourself to carry on with straight medicine. Have you looked at options to study medicine-related courses? You can still end up with a medical career and, ultimately, help people with their health if that is your passion? All will not be lost. There are also some universities that offer a pre-med or foundation into medicine which might accept lower grades. Keep researching your options, it's never too late!

Hi there,
We're sorry to hear of the way that you're feeling.
I would still like to take a moment to say congratulations on your Medicine interview with us. We can appreciate coming up to a University to far away from home can be extremely daunting, and although it may not have been in your plans, the interview still gives you the opportunity to come and see our campus so you can explore your options.
Please do not hesitate to get in contact with us to ask any questions you may have to try and settle your nerves and panic, and we will advise as much as we can. If you are still going ahead with your interview, we would like you to arrive with the confidence to go through with it. Like others have mentioned, you may want to look into alternative degrees that are Medicine related as it may take the pressure off as opposed to going through a 5/6 year degree.
Our inboxes or live chat is open if you want to discuss this further with us - we would be more than happy to advise.
Inbox: [email protected]
Live Chat: can be found on the Medicine course page
Estelle
Course Enquiries Assistant

thank you so much and I deeply apologise my original post was quite emotionally charged, I did have a look at the area and it does seem quite nice! im excited for my interview and thank you so much for the reply <3

thank you so much and looking back I was quite emotionally charged when posting this I deeply apologise 😭 and I only feel such a way because I live with my family which greatly influences my choices (im not brave enough to go against them - but I want medicine! that's mine, but my parents don't see a point) so it did seem quite be-all-end-all oops I just know my parents would greatly pressure me not to pursue medicine if I 'settle' for a non medicine course but I suppose I still have clearing and my edge hill interview